Inner Voice

一个不怎么样的新年

2012-01-26T06:45:00.000-08:00

今年，不懂为什么，没有以往那样开心。就算出去拜年，也还好。虽然是能够享受与家人团聚在一起的快乐，不过，除了这个，这个新年也没什么乐趣了。

跟老朋友也没有像想象中那样乐在其中。除了，能见到“小眼睛”的喜悦之外，还有活泼的波波。其他人，我感觉好像无精打彩似的。一些又没有回来，一些没有心意 ><. 感觉就少了那么一些喜气。

教会团拜我又无法参与因为就要回去KL了。与阿姨舅舅表姐弟妹们的相聚也还好，就有跟大人们聊聊天，不过，自己却无法融入与我同辈的表姐弟妹们，因为，饭后，他们肯定赌博（连我那2个弟弟也参与）。我不要得罪我的神，更何况，自己也没兴趣！

不晓得这是否与我渐渐长大的心态有关，没有了小时候那种喜悦的心情。反而，现在，我希望过年时，想到处游玩。

以后的新年该如何过啊？？？？

The Year of Dragon

2012-01-22T08:36:00.000-08:00

This year is still as usual another new year that we have to face.

A breakthrough that I want to achieve. I want CHANGES and of course are the good ones..

Strive to the BEST and PERSISTENCY & DETERMINATION are both needed for my goals to achieve!!!!

AJA AJA FIGHTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dramas that I'm going to watch!!!!

2012-01-11T02:51:00.001-08:00

Woohoo!!!! 2012, a year where lots of dramas need to be catch up!!!

Currently, I'm watching :

Skip Beat!!

The Moon that Embraces The Sun

Waiting for "Love Rain" which is acted by Jang Geun Seuk & Yoona and also HK drama "冲上云霄2”。

2011 had watched 49 days, Flower Boy Ramyun Shop, City Hunter, Poseidon.

So 2012, I anticipate more!!!! hahahahaha

It's 2012

2011-12-31T08:32:00.000-08:00

2012!!! This year finally come. Well, some said this year will be the end of the world.
Personally, I don't believe it as the Bible said no one knows when will be THE END, except the Father Lord.

Looking back at 2011 resolution, I found that I only manage to succeed some. So, now as usual, I;m going to have my 2012 resolution ^^

1. Lose 6kg and maintain at 45kg
2. Attend Super Show 4
3. Get into DEAN list at least once in year 2
4. Grow stronger spiritually and read His words more, pray more too.
5. Get an Iphone 5 (provided Apple release it next year)
6. Mom get a better job, have a healthy body & mind

THAT'S ALL!!!! Can't be too greedy!!!
Happy 2012 everyone!!!!
Have a BLESSED year ahead!!! Live LIFE to the FULLEST

49 Days

2011-12-26T03:22:00.001-08:00

Currently watching this drama. Initially, I watch this for the sake of want to see Jung Il Woo as I get obsessed with him after watching "Flower Boy Ramyun Shop". Honestly, I get fed up of this drama at 1st as I think is kinda long-winded. However, now the interesting parts come. Ep 15, this episode made me cried like I never cry before. It was so HEARTBREAKING!!!! The love story between Yi Soo & Yi Kyung was so tough yet pure. I cried intensely as if I'm the character in the story... haha.. T_T

(Yi Soo & Yi Kyung )

Starting to like this drama.. I want to watch more of this couple!!!!

Christmas is FINALLY here

2011-12-22T07:34:00.000-08:00

Woohoo!!!!!!!!!! I just love December!!!!
Holiday mood.... Christmas, the most heartwarming season n it's my favourite one.
Christmas, it's not about Santa, gift,friends, family. It's ALL about Jesus who came to this earth to save human. JESUS is the GIFT of Christmas.
Thank Lord that I baptised on the day of Christmas (25/12). It's a meaningful day to me because it's my another birth, or should I called it my new birth??
Rejoice in the house of God!!!!!
Going to go back on eve night!!! Gather with my friends and family~~~~
I'm so happy as some of my old gang has went back to Kuching...
Christmas!!! Owh~~~ HOW I LOVE CHRISTMAS!!!!

烦啊～～～

2011-12-08T00:29:00.000-08:00

做人好难啊～～～我生怕人家跟我借钱/叫我暂时帮忙付钱。因为小学被人骗了钱的阴影还在的关系，每当跟钱有关系时，我都很怕会扯到我这里。无论数目是大或小都好，我都不想要去理那些跟钱有关系的事情。也许，不懂的人，以为我很吝啬。不过，你不是我，不懂我的处境。有些人，跟你借钱后，会忘记还你。我又不好意思去讨。有时，我会很生气。明明就跟人借钱，怎么能忘记啊？！！有些，又一直拖着，不要还。这世上，什么样的人都有。有些人，我先帮他付钱，结果一直拖，或忘记还。最近，一直帮人付钱，也有借钱给人。虽然是我的朋友，不过我还是很担心。只要他们一天还没还，我一天都不能安心。很辛苦啊！！！好想跟他们说，又说不出口。害怕他们觉得我很坏，也怕他们把我的品格扯到我的信仰上。啊！！！！！！！

好烦啊！！！！！

我不是富家子弟！若是，根本不需去理会这些事情。。。。

神啊！救救我吧！！

Study Week

2011-12-05T20:49:00.000-08:00

Yoohooo~~~~~~~ Currently, I'm having study week.. Yesterday went to Jogoya ( a japanese buffet restaurant ) with my coursemates. It was an awesome place where I got to eat many luxurious and delicious food which I never ate before. Branded ice cream like Haagen Daaz, oyster, and many other expensive food, I got to try all at once. But too bad that my little tummy can't feed in all these food. I still haven't get to eat some :(

After a full meal, headed to watch Twilight Saga : Breaking Dawn with my friends. The movie as expected doesn't has climax. Just like Harry Potter : The Deathly Hallows ( Part 1 ), all the excited part would be keep in part 2.

Since this is short sem, I only have 2 paper for my final which are Introduction to Japanese Language & Fundamentals of Imagery & Composition. Not much to learn if I've the basic :p

Feel like going out but money is a problem. I don't want to spend too much ..

Going back soon which is on 24/12. Too bad that I can't attend Sg Maong Methodist Church Christmas event as I would be on the plane when it starts. :( Going to spend my Christmas eve on it... T_T

The BEST thing is I get to meet my cutest buddy, Ing Noh and The Old Gang when I go back homE. Of course, not forgetting my mommy and my family ^^

Happy Holidays to me~~~~~~~~~~~

It's TIME to Grow

2011-12-03T08:41:00.000-08:00

Just came back from MO.A Mnet Live Concert. Well, basically, I've spent RM483.00 for this concert just because Super Junior is going to perform, with other k-pop bands like F(x), Miss A and B1A4.

CONCLUSION : I'm upset with it.

Last night went to KLIA just hoping to see SJ arrive. Who knows? They used VIP exit and ended up me and my friend wasted RM18 for nothing. I was moody by then.

Then, this morning, I get to saw then especially SJ rehearsing. Ya, I was very happy that time. Later, my friend went to press conference and accidentally she got a free pass to attend the fans meeting. Honestly, I was rather upset and envy on that time. But when I come to think of it, I can't blame her, she doesn't know it earlier too. However, this acts as a trigger to me. It triggers my mind to think why must I feel sad, unhappy and jealous about it?

Does SJ worthy for me to feel that way? I do not want my relationship with friends get spoiled just because of them ! Besides, why am I so immature that I felt jealous whenever I heard someone got to see them closely or got body contact. I'm not RATIONAL anymore!

Furthermore, whenever I attend such concert, I always ended up scolding people and show uncivilised actions due to the attitude and actions shown by some irrational fans. Tonight's concert is a good example. I keep on pushing the Korean girl who has no manners AT ALL!!!!! Impression towards Korean DEDUCTED!!!!!

These questions came to my mind. Does SJ knows how much money and effort I have spent on them? Does they know because of them, my value has decreased? I have no reputation at all!!!
Does they know because of them, I sacrifice lots of things? Most IMPORTANT is, does they know my EXISTENCE at all ??!!!!!

Actually, I know these since earlier. Just that I keep avoiding to think of these things. I do not want to face the reality. I keep on hypnotizing myself that they are good, considerate and friendly to fans. Maybe what my friends said are right, this can be acted out.

Well, maybe this is the time for me to GROW. I want to CHANGE. I do not want to be someone who always got crazy with celebrities. For now, I really hope that I can do it. However, somehow, I maybe just got emo today, then tomorrow still be the same useless me :p

Almost come to the End

2011-11-28T07:17:00.000-08:00

Wow!!! My Year 1 is going to end soon... Next week after I submit the photo essay, then I'll be preparing for my final exam which is on 17/12 & 20/12 respectively. Then, 24/12 - Kuching, I'll be back again!!!! Yeah!!!!

This short semester is really packed. All assignments need to be finish as soon as possible.

2012, I'll step into Year 2. My course is going to be tougher. Thus, I need more strength from my awesome God.

Oh ya, Christmas is around the corner. My favourite festive season !!!!

Going to have a blessed and blast Christmas in Kuching ^^

那些年，我们一起追过的女孩

2011-11-22T07:06:00.000-08:00

最近，这套戏好红哦！Facebook几乎天天都可看到人家给予它不错的评语。我周围看过的朋友都说赞！所以，今天，终于，抱着一颗期待的心情和朋友去看了。

结果是。。。。

还好。哈哈。。本人还以为自己会哭得稀里哗啦，哪知，没有像想象中那样。我没感觉耶。

只是感叹相爱的人不能在一起。这是我最讨厌的结局。

说真的，看完后，觉得花得不值钱。:P 这套戏，太多不雅的动作，还有粗俗的话。好多不喜欢的脏话哦。有一点，我不懂的是，为什么要有柯景腾全裸的镜头啊？意义何在？还有，为什么有一幕，镜头一定是要从那警官的下体那里取角度呢？这又有何意思？拍摄镜头方面，好多close up, medium close up。它也apply 好多 depth of field 的技巧在里面。只有几个镜头，个人觉得还不赖！故事情节，还蛮单纯的。（因为是述说着中学时期的剧情吗）

说真的，本人真的认为有点A啊～～商业片的戏，果真就是要商业化啊～～～

乱爆！

2011-11-10T07:09:00.000-08:00

不懂为什么这个SEM简直是乱爆啦！！！！

我整天都会忘记要做assignment。有时，连group discussion都差点给它也忘了。

虽然开始做part-time工，但也不至于把该做的东西/事情给忘了啊？！

这个SEM，一个字来形容：乱！！！

今天，有点火！F.I.C 的 assignment 出了点事情。以后，不要再听那些没用的提议！我做主！虽然，知道这样会有点霸道。可是，总比说了又没去做来得更好！

Sunzi 的assignment : 已经讲了好多次，要他们尽快交上。虽然离due date还有一个星期，不过，还是希望他们赶快做好。我一直延迟该交上的时间。总感觉，这次group assignment做的好乱！我超级不喜欢！不知是否因为SHORT SEM的关系，所以，必须要赶好多东西。

神啊！救我啊！！别让我一直忘记重要的事情！！！！

Such a Coincidence!

2011-10-31T07:31:00.000-07:00

I just started to read the bible " Song of Songs" since last week. This book is more like a love poem and story by Solomon.

And Guess what??!!! I've realised that suddenly many of my friends around me are in a relationship.

LOL. I'm reading "Song of Songs" and many love story came out... haha..

I guess is a good sign?? Well, CONGRATULATION to those from a single status to in a relationship status. Have a blessed relationship :)

Hmmph.... when will it be my turn??

Oh no, this thought appear again.. Shoo... Let God arrange la..

LALALALALALA...........

Year 1 Sem 3

2011-10-16T00:42:00.000-07:00

YES!!!! Tomorrow my new semester commence.

Feel excited and frustrated somehow... haha... dilemma ya.

Excited as I'm going to learn new things and meet my friends.

Frustrated as need to face ASSIGNMENTS~~~~~~~~

Well, I hope I can do well in this new semester.

Honestly, these few days I feel heavy emotionally. Something happened to my friend.

She's upset and undergo "emo" state. She feels like quitting our course and me, as her friend

feel very sad too. Because she is one of my treasured friend, and selfish me, of course wouldn't want her to leave us so early.. I want to graduate with her.

She hasn't decided yet but I really hope that she can go on with it.

Her problem keeps bugging me as I'm really worry about her. However, she's the kind that wouldn't pour out her problems or feelings to people. So, it's kinda hard for me to say anything.

I texted her a few days ago and finally she replied me this early morning, saying that she's okay now. But, I hope she's really OKAY!

I'm willingly to help her as long as she request. That's what are friends for.

I wouldn't want her to quit suddenly in the midst of this new semester.

I hope she can get a better grade so that her cgpa can be improved.

xxx, I just wanna say I really LOVE you. As a friend of yours, I really would lend you my hand and my ear whenever you need one. As long as you open up your mouth and tell me.

I couldn'e bare to accept another fact that another friend of mine is going to leave UTAR. I don't you to become the second Amy...

Jesus, please bless this friend of mine. Do help her in her life although she doesn't get to know you enough yet. I hope she can do better in this semester and Lord, please let me help her with the strength and wisdom You gave me

BACK

2011-10-13T19:22:00.000-07:00

Yes, tomorrow I'll be back to PJ. Today will be my last day in Kuching.

As usual, feels heavy to leave although I know that I'll be back in 2 months time.

New semester awaits. Definitely going to give my BEST effort in this short semester.

FULL GEAR MODE!

This holidays is kind of short to me though is a 3 weeks break. Somemore, my days in Kuching

are kinda quite. Maybe because most of my pals are not around. Some having classes.

Wrong timing for my return. Anyway, I spent quite meaningful time doing exercise..hehe.

In KL, I hardly can as my room is too small for me to dance :p

Going to go for gym as this is my only way of reducing fat. hahaha...

So long, Kuching. I 'm going to miss YOU so much~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Because of You & 全然为祢

2011-10-05T01:41:00.000-07:00

This coming Saturday is Senior Youth Praise & Worship Night. These 2 songs will be in the list.

1st time get to listen to them.

POWERFUL songs indeed!!!!!

May God's presence be with us this saturday.

婚姻

2011-10-02T19:22:00.000-07:00

昨天下午5pm终于从诗巫回来了。

1/10是我老友姚庆泰的婚礼。终于啊～～他结婚了！真替他感到高兴。他的妻子很甜美哦。真是郎才女貌啊！哈哈。。

参加他的婚礼，感触特别多。不知道是不是因为和他认识并且很熟的关系。他步入人生的另一个阶段，那就是：结婚。他可以说是成家立业啦。时间过得真的很快。想当年，我们这几只毛头小子，一起玩了，在主里认识相交，那时，我才16岁罢了；而他也才21。现在大家都有自己的成就及不同的路。我只能感叹时间的飞逝。说真的，参加他的婚礼，我有几度差点掉下眼泪。这是喜泣而泪。真的替他感到无比的开心！愿神满满的祝福这对新人。

啊～～～他结婚了。。几时轮到我呢？哈哈。。其实，参加这个婚礼时，突然有想婚的念头。

槽糕！钟惠盈（slap slap )你还是跟我读好书先。哈哈。。这种事交托给神吧。现在，本小姐，连男朋友都没。心意的人，其实，真的没有耶。真的还没有遇见我肋骨的主人。

之前，房友闹着玩的，只是那时的暂时的反应吧了。

现在，与其注重爱情，我更加珍惜友情。让阿爸父来决定我的伴侣吧。即使一辈子单身，我愿意顺服。

( 我超爱这个礼盒，真的很可爱 ^^）

There's no place like HOME~~~

2011-09-28T02:03:00.000-07:00

Yesterday arrived home safely.. Thank God that Min Poh is on the same flight with me ( won't be bored ). Chit-chatted with this old buddy of mine.

At home really is the most comfortable. One problem is that, my house's wi-fi got problem. Thus, can't online except if I plug in the cable.

Last night after I came back from KL, went to church straight away at night for the P&W training session. It's been awhile serving and training with these familiar people. Kinda miss those days..

So many things I wanted to do during this sem break. I've got my hair straighten finally.. Yeah!!

Bus ticket to Sibu has purchased. Thank you to my dearest sister, Chia Yin. She accompanied me to purchased them. Before that, we went for a swim at 7am early in the morning.. (wow!!!). Then, went for breakfast and bank.

This Friday will be going to Wesley's wedding with my bro. Sunday I'll be back to Kuching.

It's been almost 3-4 years we've not met. Time really flies that now he's going to get married.. wow! ( when will be my turn ? :p hahaha )

Gotta say bye bye to my fatty oil coz I'm determined to cut down my weight during these 3 weeks!!!! No more fatty Michelle :p

End of Year 1 Sem 2

2011-09-21T18:59:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was my last paper. NOW is........................ HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank God for leading me throughout the entire exam process. I'm satisfy with my overall performance. Hopefully, I can get good grades :p

Well, after exam, as usual, hang out with my GKG group. Currently, I'm at Shadow's house now... We have plan today : to hang out whole day ( Low Yat Plaza, Snowflake, Movie time n etc... )

Owh~~~~~~~~ I just love holidays...

Next Tuesday, I'll be back to my lovely hometown - KUCHING!!!!!

Year 1 Sem 3 is coming soon~~~~

Last Paper : Mass Media & Society

2011-09-15T04:48:00.001-07:00

I'm going to CHARGE~~~~~~~~~~~~ for my last paper!!!!!

Just like this rhino!!! :p

No laying back!!!!

Going to study like a MAD person!!!!

FIGHTING!!!! JIA YOU!!!

GOD be with ME ^^

An Exclusive Mooncake Festival

2011-09-13T04:00:00.000-07:00

This festive event in 2011 was a brand new and warming experience for me.

For the 1st time in my life, celebrating mooncake festival with friends instead of family since I'm studying away from home.

It's an unforgettable one, for sure.

Yesterday, after English for Mass Communcation paper, we had a simple birthday celebration with Priya, Vinxi and Eugene. These 3 birthdays are on 11th, 12th, and 13th respectively.

Happy Birthday, peeps!!!

Group photo

Later, Me and my gang went to Cheras as we've decided to stay at Lois's house for mooncake festival and her birthday celebration. We went to eat cendol and rojak, to Jusco for guitar repairing.

Later, headed back to Lois's house for her birthday celebration. Her mom prepared a sumptuous dinner for us and her whole family treated us kindly. Thank you so much~~~

yummy~~~

We went to hang lantern and somehow played with the candles. haha... childish ya... Recalled back the times we had fun during childhood.

After that, we went to watch Nasi Lemak 2.0 till midnight. Not bad for a local film production, the storyline is interesting and related to Malaysia's society and culture. We laugh so badly.

We went back home straight after that.

Next session : PILLOW TALK ( hahaha )

We chatted till 5.30+ am in the next morning. Some even slept at 7am. lol.

The consequences : We all slept till afternoon :p Haven't prepare for coming Thursday paper : Radio Broadcasting..

Gotta "CHIONG" ar~~~~~~~~~~~~

Well, it's an awesome and fantastic time with my friends. :)

current

2011-09-05T23:42:00.000-07:00

This coming thursday exam will starts. "Eating" books and notes in these few weeks. Really tired :(

My brain capacity almost comes to a limit.

I hope I can do well in the exam !!

GOD BLESS ME ^^

FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-08-23T20:59:00.000-07:00

I WANT TO MAKE A DECLARATION HERE :

I'M FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.........

WOOHOOOOOOOOOO....

Yesterday was my last day submitting all my assignments and also finish my presentation!

Finally, I can get a rest.

However, good things do not last forever. After 2 more weeks, it'll be my...

Ahhhhhhhhh........... The one which every students can't escape from. Going to have restless nights again~~~( just like the pic below )

I'm going to strive my best in this coming exam. Yeah~~~ Aiming for DEAN list and I really mean it !!! All the best to me ^^

Seek strength and wisdom from my almighty God !!!!

"Voice-less"

2011-08-19T18:45:00.000-07:00

Argh........ Having serious sorethroat。 Inflammation occurs. Hardly speak, even swallowing my saliva makes me feel pain.

God, please cure my throat. I still have presentation on coming Tuesday.

SORETHROAT, SHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO............

GO AWAY!!!

容身之处

2011-08-17T08:49:00.000-07:00

今晚，心情不是很好。特别是当我大学那一群的男子对我开了个不好笑的玩笑。我发脾气了！（经期的时候，特别容易发脾气）。

过后，想了很多东西。发现，在这里，找不到像在古晋，属于自己的藏身之处。在古晋，我有属于自己的一群真心了解并互相click得来的好朋友，在学校也不例外。

可是，为什么来到大学这里，我觉得怎样努力都融入不进那个圈子？虽然我现在有2个gang,可是我感觉不到我在他们中间的存在，更不用说我是否属于那个圈子。是不是因为宗教的关系？所以，想法及对所看的东西都不同？

在圈子A时，跟他们相处蛮舒服，因为不会骂粗口，讲黄色笑话。不会有cultural shock.可是，有时候，会觉得自己不那么被人疼爱及关怀。也许，在古晋太好命了！好多朋友宠我；所以习惯被关注的感觉。

在圈子B时，他们很好，会帮助人。但我不喜欢的是，他们很爱骂粗口，讲黄色笑话，比中指。这些我都无法接受。因为古晋认识的朋友都比较文明及礼貌。可是，最近发现每当跟他们出去时，会觉得越来越无法和他们合得来（不至于吵架那种啦）。因为他们的言行举止及所谈的话题，我都插不进去。

我真的两头都不对岸！哪里是我的容身之处？？只有在家乡，才能找到属于我的温暖及幸福。因为有一群关心我的老朋友及教会的朋友。又来了！很想你们。每当失落时，就会想到你们！

还好，上帝知道我内心的想法。我的室友，菲殷是个体贴的朋友。再加上，他是个基督徒。想法和我相近。比较容易沟通，还可以一起讲心事。感谢主！

不过，主啊！有时候，我真的很怀疑我存在的价值。脑袋里是懂我存在是为了荣耀神，也只有耶稣珍惜我的存在。但内心里，一直觉得没人真心真意关心我（特别是当我处于在那2个圈子里的时候）。主啊，奉主基督的名，欺骗的灵给我退去！我在神眼中是宝贵的！即使全世界的人都不爱我，关心我，只有耶稣愿意陪在我的身旁

Sequelae

2011-08-14T06:35:00.000-07:00

Indulged in sweet, blissful, blessed and delightful mood for 4 days with my mommy.

This Thursday, mom and youngest brother-Joshua came to KL to visit me and have fun.

We lived in Sharon's house in Maluri. I had a wonderful time with mom indeed. We went to quite a number of places. I feel happy and contented just by staying beside her (hehehe).Therefore, kinda broke, not for me, but my mom, since she mostly do the paying ( I do help to pay some, so that it would not be even worse :p). No worries, God will supply my mom!

This few days, each and every minute - EAT EAT EAT!!!!! FAT lo.... haha

Never mind, it's worth it as is with my mommy ar~~~~

Surprisingly, my mom's birthday is on 13/8, which is just yesterday. She got to celebrate her birthday this year at KL. (celebrate with me ) What a luck!!! haha

I didn't buy anything for her because she insisted not too, but the present that I gave was a HUG !! Though it is priceless, it is full of love and sincerity.

I was so upset went I parted with my mom at Times Square. I need to go back to PJ because I'll be having a presentation tomorrow. If not, definitely I'm going to accompany her until tomorrow before she goes off to Kuching. After hugging and saying goodbye to mom, tears are rolling inside my eyeballs, feels like crying. I was so emo until I reached the LRT station near my living area.

1 more month to go before I'm going back to Kuching!!! Michelle, got to get myself back to assignment mode. This week is a tough week as many assignments and presentations are waiting for me..

Mommy is Coming

2011-08-10T04:52:00.000-07:00

Mommy is coming tomorrow. Yeapy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"Chapalang"

2011-08-08T04:11:00.000-07:00

Hehehehe.... Just a random post :p

Well well, this coming Thursday, my beloved mom, brother Joshua and Aunty ( Mom's sister ) would be coming to KL..

Yeappy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Going to spend quality time with them. Reunite with family is the best part when it comes to study in other places/country/states. But still, I need to accomplish my assignments by Thursday so that I would not be left out when I've spend time hanging out with my mom. :p

Oh ya, today (8/8) is the Donghae's dad death anniversary day. His father deceased on 2008/8/8. He surely has lots of memories to recall and words to tell his precious dad.

COUNTDOWN to days that my mom will come.... :)

Amazing Grace~~~~

2011-07-28T07:16:00.000-07:00

Wow!!!!!!!! Finally my nervous and panicking DJ presentation is over!!! ( clap clap )

I truly want to thanks my beloved heavenly Father for guiding me throughout the whole process of this individual assignment. From planning until presentation, He always leads me to the right path.

Honestly, I was sooooooooooooo freaking nervous today until I felt that my head is a bit heavy. But luckily, I made some jokes with my coursemates and after all the laughing, I'm able to chill down myself. I keep practising to make sure I'm 100% familiar with my script. ( I memorised all the lines and dialogues :p )

Finally, it's my turn ( the 9th person ) after the long wait. God is so AMAZING... With a cheerful heart ( after the continuous jokes and encouragement from my coursemates ) I went in the broadcast lab, Miss Ruth as always with a cheerful smile but Mr Makenthira was "acting" strict and cool. ( Sir, u can't play psychological games with me, My God is with Me :p )

Thank God that I did not freak out because of Mr Makenthira's "acting", instead in a steady manner, I went to set up the console and the monitor. Everything was fine and in a good condition. My coursemates said they can hear clearly what I've said and played. ( Thank God, once again )

However, my heart is still beating super fast. Really really really thank God that when sir started to play the recorder, the device didn't work. (LOL....) So it took some time for him to do some stuff on the device. During that time, my heartbeat rate slows down and eventually, I felt CALM. Somehow, I felt that God is giving me time to cool down myself in order to perform well. What a nice timing, Lord!!!! You're such a considerate God ^^ hehehe..

Then, during my presentation, everything went well but I got a bit stammer and minor dead air.

Mr Makenthira commented about the minor dead air stuff and he said that the background music should be slower than my voice as I'm doing a night show where my voice is calm and soft. He suggested jazz type song ( actually, I got think of putting a jazz song but don't why I didn't use it :p).

I'm so happy that he praised my fader techniques and technical skills. My news report is good as not many of my coursemates do it and he saw my effort of memorising the script. ^^ He told me that next time I should just try to memorise the key point and present naturally. Because both Mr Makenthira and Ms Ruth found that I tried to controlled my tone and voice...haha.. But, they are satisfied with my style :p ( Ms Ruth even said I used a sexy voice... lol.. I don't mean to, miss )

On the other hand, Ms Ruth said my " A Quote A Day" section is fresh and she was satisfied with my ending as not many of my friends ended well. She like the way I present my night show ^^

Even some of my coursemates and Huiying said it really sounds like a night show. Very soothing and relaxing. Thanks guys~~~ I really appreciate it . I always wanted to have a night program as a DJ where listeners would share their thoughts and feelings to me. Finally, I got a chance to do it. YEAH!!!!

OVERALL, I'm satisfied with all the compliments and mistakes that I've done. This couldn't be a success without my friends' prayer and coursemates' advice!!

From deep down in my heart, I Thank you all !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The one I want to THANK the most is

JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Without my Lord, I can't do it. Because of Him, everything is possible !!!!!

I LOVE YOU, MY ALMIGHTY GOD!!!!!

YOU'RE SO COOL~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

50% RELIEVE

2011-07-26T07:26:00.001-07:00

PHEWWWWWWWWW...............

Thank God that my "Mass Media & Society" group assignment has completed 90%.

"Introduction to Mass Communication" has 85% done too.

My literate review for "English for Mass Communication" has been approved and edited by my tutor.

DJ presentation has quite enough of practice, but still need more as I need to achieve an effort of 200% .

This is because when comes to the day I present, which is on coming Thursday, due to panic and nervous, my performance surely will degrade and by tat time, at least I still have 100%. :p

hahaha.. (great philosophy -- taught by my piano teacher ^^)

Overall, I'm not that stressful anymore since I've completed most of my stuff earlier.

Thanks God for guiding me.

Please do pray for me for my DJ presentation on this coming Thursday . (After watching some of my coursemates' performance today, it really makes me feel extreme panic )

May God be with me. Bless me with courage, calmness, still, wisdom during the presentation!!!!

Beginning of Week 8

2011-07-21T03:43:00.000-07:00

Since this week, I'm super busy!!!! Stay at campus till late night for DJ Presentation practice. Rushing with 2 reports and there are more to come. Luckily, my self presentation for Intro to Mass Comm and case study presentation has finished earlier. If not, I don't dare to imagine how would I manage to cope.

All the best to ME!!!!!!!!!!! ADD OIL!!!!!

I CAN DO ANYTHING WITH GOD !!!

since when?

2011-07-17T07:31:00.000-07:00

Since when I've become so stereotype? Stereotype on physical beauty.

Is it after looking at the changes that my churchmates' have in Kuching or PJ? Or it has embedded in my mind since young , just that eventually it has came up?

Honestly, since I came to west M'sia, I saw lots of pretty girls. They dress well, look well too. Inferior is ignited within me. I feel less confident on my appearance. I'm starting to look down on myself, thinking that I'm not that pretty, thinking that I'm not thin enough. Starting to feel upset because of my almond-shaped eyes, single lid, broaded-nose, square face and fatty body of mine. I admire all those pretty girls, really. Although I know that physical appearance is not everything, but it means something to me.

The bad part is, I even thinking of going for plastic surgery (if only I have an amount of money).

I know that my own dissatisfaction of my looks is indirectly complain to God that I dislike the way He created me. Whenever I put on cloth, I feel inferior because of my belly, arms, waist, thigh, legs and double chin. Even wearing specs too, makes me feel sad. How I wish to wear contact lens but can't. It's too expensive to gain one due to my serious eye sight.

Ya, I know I should go for an exercise to put down my weight. However, assignments has fully occupy my time. Furthermore, I can't do light exercise such as sit-up due to my tiny room.

God, please recover the confidence I had before. I really dislike the low self-esteem I have within me. It's just so not me! I never has such worries before. Is it every girl need to consider their outlook in their 20s?

I WANT TO BE CONFIDENT!!!! I WANT TO BE SOMEONE!!!!

I DON'T WANT TO FOLLOW TREND BLINDLY!!!!!

GOD, CAST OUT ALL THE NEGATIVE THOUGHTS I HAVE!!!!

Burdened!

2011-06-24T20:28:00.000-07:00

This semester is really confusing compared to last semester. Most of the assignments looks very similar and each subject is somehow related. I kinda get confused of which is which sometime. Many new things I need to learn how to do and I really hate the feeling of lost and no sense of direction. I feel burden and stress as I really want to achieve high marks on my assignments. Guys, please pray for me.

Nothing is impossible in God and I must learn to lay all my burdens to Him.

All the best to me!!!!

Busy Day Ahead!

2011-06-09T05:43:00.000-07:00

I'm going to be super busy starting next week. Lots of assignments to do and most of them require lots of detailed work.

Hopefully I can cooperate well with my groupmates. May God gives me strength to handle all these heavy assignments. Lord, do let me regain the passion and diligence I used to have in semester 1 in this semester!!!!

WITH GOD, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!

sentimental

2011-06-04T00:21:00.000-07:00

Don't know what's happening to me recently?? Emo.. emo...emo...

A lot of feelings that I want to pour out.. I miss a lot of people. I miss the moment where me and my friends hanged out together, worshipped and served our Lord, being crazy and chit-chatting with one another.

Yes! I miss all that moments.. Beautiful memories indeed!!

My old gang --- I, Sharon, Guan Kiat, Catherine, Liang Jiun, Hubert, Wei Ting, Joyce, Cally,

Min Poh, Jason.

Buddies that I hanged out with for more than 10 years. Now, everyone is at different places on the earth. Living and adapting to new environment. Parting has put a distance between us. Honestly, I want to thank you all for entering into my life. You guys are irreplaceable and it will always be.

My churchmates --- Chia Yin, May Yin, Moon, Lydia, Joshua, Jessie, Ah Ni, Daniel, Vivian,

James, Stefanie, Rev Chin, Pastor Bao, Wesley and etc.

( Too many people. Sorry for unable to listed out.)

These are also people that I treasure. Those names are not mentioned are also cherished by me. In church, I've served God with all these amazing "homosapien" (haha). Though sometime conflict does occur, it would be solved with God's wonderful love. I grew and moulded in God's home. I truly endured those time with them. Oh gosh~~~ really miss you guys desperately!!

I know by this time, I should gotten less homesick, but in fact, NO! I still miss Kuching!

Although I got to know a lot of new friends here, somehow there's something missing which me, myself doesn't know what is the missing part. Sometime, I do feel a gap among them. Maybe because of cultural background and different upbringing?

Ya, I know I'm sensitive. I do mentioned before and those who knows me well, understand it very much. A simple eye glance or action would caused me much pain and hurt. Truthfully, I dislike being alone and ignored. Here, I can't express my feelings directly as I'm afraid that I would hurt someone. This is different in Kuching, as my close friends know it and we often poured out our true feelings and really pointed out each other's weaknesses in order to improve ourselves.

(SIGH) MICHELLE!!! Nothing is impossible in our God!!! With HIs strength, I can endure

any hardships and circumstances!!!

很难不爱你们！

2011-05-28T22:03:00.000-07:00

我知道我真的中毒了！中了SUPER JUNIOR 的毒！！

昨天，28.5.2011，七早八早就爬起来，因为要等第一趟的巴士到Asia Jaya LRT Station，跟Ann Ning 回合。我们要到Putrajaya排队。因为这场Super Junior M免费小型演唱会，是Free Standing;所以不早的话，就会排到后面去咯！

大概8点多左右，我们到达了！还好人不会很多，还有帐篷与椅子给我们遮阳，不过，由于前面还有一大片空场地，所以演唱会的时候还是要站的。哇！天气热到我受不了！！还好中午又下了场雨（每当super junior 来，都会下雨。。哈哈）。做了大概要到2+pm 时，开始有人慢慢移步到前面去。我们当然不会那么笨！我们也开始走到前面去，哈！我还有几位朋友站在第一排！我真的没想到能站这么前。不过，风水位不是那么好，因为前面被一位camera man挡住。。sigh...

等待当中，我一直被人挤。真的很想打人那时候，我本来就很讨厌人挤人的场面，可是为了SJM，我忍了！4+pm 时，他们到达了！他们有个简单的彩排！不过，只微微有看到周觅，圭贤，Henry 及银赫。他们都躲在台后那里彩排。虽然如此，我们还是很high!!!哈哈。。

过后，就这样等到将近10pm，SJM出现了！！！我们的情绪高昂了起来！！他们第一首就呈现“太完美”！！虽然，东海和始源因为忙着拍戏没来，不过，我还是很兴奋！他们很像很开心的样子！讲话时，会偶尔逗逗团员，他们也好会说话，嘴巴甜到蚂蚁都可以爬过来了！

李晟敏，真的超可爱的！全场一直保持笑容！真的很想捏他的脸（有点变态，不好意思啊）。银赫也是，玩的蛮开的吗。。。第一次，亲耳听到他们说中文，会有一点激动哦！！此外，他们还有fan service.哇！这个环节把我们给弄疯了！可以近距离与他们接触，又有拥抱！特别是那位圭贤先生，连续2次抱歌迷，还摸摸粉丝的头！全场尖叫到耳膜几乎要爆破！

银赫，也是，还给歌迷来个熊抱！周觅也亲粉丝的手！好多人多么希望自己是那位幸运儿！（还好，李东海没来，否则，我会抓狂！哈哈）SJM连续呈现“到了明天”，Henry solo "Off My Ming", 周觅演唱“凌晨3点钟”，厉旭演唱“我只在乎你”，圭贤演唱“如果你也听说”，最后银赫表演舞蹈！！他们也演唱了“命运线”。安可就来个Super Girl!! 美好的时间总是很快过。就这样1个小时的迷你演唱会，就结束了。真的很依依不舍！！他们说会可能在马来西亚举行fan party!!听了之后，真的很开心！不过，希望不要在今年，呵呵。。荷包不是很满。。

2011年，真是让我爽透了！万万没想到既然能见他们2次，还是这么近距离耶。。真的是很难不爱他们！！！old gang 们，看来我不会那么快就不会喜欢super junior 了，可能会永远喜欢他们！你们不可以在“suan"我了！哈哈！！！我把全部的照片都在facebook上载了，你们可以到那里看！

I'm PROUD to become an E.L.F!

Never REGRET of loving SUPER JUNIOR!

MIRACLE!!!

2011-05-25T23:52:00.000-07:00

THANK YOU JESUS!!!!!

( I can say a million time of thank you!)

I was so panic while waiting for my result as everyone said that today UTAR would release it. I keep log in to the student portal but failed. Finally, when I've succeeded in logging in, I saw my result!!! My heart almost explode!!! I'm overwhelmed with joy and happiness when I saw this:

Pengajian Malaysia : Pass

Communicative English : B+

Malaysia: Cultural and Religious Practices: B+

English Grammar in Context : B-

Broadcasting : A-

Multimedia Design and Application : A

CGPA :3.4169

The miracle is, I got A- for Broadcasting!!!! I was so shock when I looked at it..I never thought that I would get an A- for it as Mr Luqman was so angry of our answers when he posted in FB. I thought I would be dead meat. Really thank God for His grace and mercy. Another miracle is an A for Multimedia... WOW!!! I never expected that result because when I sat for it, I can't manage to finish it in time. I think my assignment does help me a lot... Once again, Thank You, Lord!!!

However, I'm quite unsatisfied with my english-based subjects. I thought I would get an A for it. Never mind then, I can't be too greedy. The Cultural subject - okay la... nothing much to say..

Overall, I'm really satisfied with my result although I almost could achieve CGPA 3.5. Going to strive in my 2nd semester. CGPA above 3.5 would be my target!!!! May God be with me always!!

KAMSAHAMIDA, JESUS!

TERIMA KASIH, JESUS!

THANK YOU, LORD!

谢谢，耶稣！

多谢，主！

ARIGATO,GOD!!!!

Back to Square One

2011-05-24T18:38:00.000-07:00

BACK!!!

I've reached PJ last evening. Thanks God for the safe trip back here. Wow!! My house is so crowded..haha... I've got a new roommate and 2 new housemates. Welcome welcome...

Well, I don't know what should I do within this week. 2nd semester would starts on next Monday. Frankly speaking, I'm looking forward to it although I know piles of assignments and presentation are waiting for me. I just love my course!!!! ^^

It seems that a lot of people are going to leave from Sg Maong Methodist Church. Yesterday, Ing Noh left to Pontianak, Henry would be leaving today to UTAR; Joshua would be leaving too to KL on next month... Not many teens left in church already.. There's always parting in life.. God bless everyone!!!!

Belongs

2011-05-20T09:55:00.001-07:00

A few hours ago, hang out with Ing Noh, Sze Wei, May Yin, Catherine, Keh Yue, Stephanie and Jessie at Novus Cafe. Had a good moment and nice chat with them. It's been for quite some time I haven't got such chance being around with them. Later, we went to 10th mile "Xuan Dao Tang" as we got a gathering event with their youth. Although not many people are joining, an addition of Cindy, Yan Yan, Nick, Nelson, Henry and Chia Yin; I'm felt happy just being around with these people that I'm familiar with. They are my companion. We talk and bluff around and there's a strong feeling of belonging within this fellowship.

Honestly, during the time in GA Youth, I can't sense a belonging feeling when I'm being with them although I've been in that church for around 5 months. Maybe this period of time is still consider short for me. The " HOME" feeling that I've in Sg Maong Methodist Church can't be found in GA611, frankly speaking. I'm still feeling awkward whenever I'm with GA Youth. God, please help me to adapt to this new environment. I really love Sg Maong Methodist Church- my 2nd home. This is the BEST church I've attended and there's none could replace its position.

I think it would take some time for me to have a belonging sense in GA611. Whenever I attend their church event or services, it really makes me think of Sg Maong Methodist Church. Can't help it though. Really love my church too much.. Next Tuesday will be leaving, really miss my beloved church and churchmates... I'll miss you guys a lot.. I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!

Final "Destination"

2011-05-16T06:19:00.000-07:00

HOME, this is where I would be for the following 9 days. Although it is a short period of time staying in Kuching, I'll still enjoy and spend my time wisely with my family and friends.

Hmmmm.... What to do in these few days?? Of course, preparing for the 21/5 evangelistic event's Praise & Worship session. It's been almost 5 months for not serving the Lord as the church I'm attending in PJ (GA611) has too many talented people. Besides that, I'm still adapting to their organisation and administrative system as it is different from the church where I used to be, which is Sg Maong Methodist Church. Yeah, Lord, Here I am to serve You once more!

3pm, reached home. Too many things to share with my mommy as life in KL is too colourful and interesting. Haha.. I've got the chance to drive again.. I miss driving because I don't get a chance to drive in KL. My transport are my legs, bus n LRT.. lol..

Still the same phrase : "IT'S TOO GOOD TO BE AT HOME"

The place

2011-05-14T18:09:00.000-07:00

Anticipating...

Finally, tomorrow I'll be going back home. Back to the place I'm familiar with. Back to the place where my beloved churchmates are. Back to the place where my closest friends are. Back to the place where food supply is ample ( no need to spend $ on food particularly :p). Back to the place where I gain lots of love and care from family and friends.

Owhh~~~~~~~~~ I just love Kuching so much. The place where I grew more than 20+ years. Lots of memory, neither good or bad, I just miss the time when I was in Kuching.

I can meet my cutie pie, Ing Noh. I can have a farewell with her before she goes to Indonesia. Also, I can have a gathering with my old gang. Yeah~~ And also, can meet my brothers & sisters in Christ. Just by thinking, it makes me feel happy & blissful.

I CAN'T WAIT TO REACH HOME!!!

Nothing to Do

2011-05-11T22:53:00.000-07:00

Thursday is today. I should be staying at my hometown now but due to my flight ticket, I need to stay until this week. I can only go back on Monday. If I'm at home now, I should have lots of things to do. I want to go out but not feeling to spend money. In KL, as long as one goes out, definitely need to spend money, transportation fee can't be an exception. Sigh...

Therefore, this few days have been watching Korea drama, variety shows of Super Junior. I can say that I spend most of my time with SJ...haha...

Really boring here. Although I can watch as many programmes as I want, I still need to wait for the streaming and uploading of youtube. Wireless connection here is lame as compared to my home where the connection is superb! Sigh... Michelle, you got to endure it. YES, ENDURE IT!!!!!

FOR MY BELOVED

2011-05-09T22:57:00.001-07:00

Hey hey hey... My masterpiece for my MOM!!!! I know it's quite lame because I'm still at a low level using photoshop. My gift for her. Don't know what to present to her as she got tons of clothes, shoes and etc. So, at the end I decided to use what I learnt in university, then applied here in this picture. Hopefully, she likes it. Since I was a child, whenever I gave her my handmade card, my mom just put it aside which hurted my tiny mini soul. :( I just hope that this time it wouldn't happened again. But if it really happens, it's okay for me since I'm used to it already... MOM, please accept it! I've put lots of efforts and sincerity in it...

Semester Break

2011-05-08T03:34:00.000-07:00

Yohoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SEM BREAK SEM BREAK SEM BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday, after my "Malaysia"Cultural and Religious Practices" paper has finished, I was filled with joyful emotion. It's been awhile I felt so happy after completing an exam as I've not taken any exam since STPM, which about 1 and a half year.. Hahaha.

Overall performance during this term exam was kind of "so so" to me. Hopefully I can score above 3.5.. ^^ One of the advantage of studying in university/college is that, our assignments allocated certain percentage of marks that will be combining with final exam marks. That means, our grade doesn't fully depend on exam only as what it does in secondary school.

So, yesterday after finished my paper, I went out with my coursemates to Subang. Went to Sunway for a drink then later headed to Restaurant Tasty Pot for buffet.. I ate untill my stomach almost explodes!!! Damn FULL!!!!! After that, we went to Lookout Point to see the nightview of KL.. It was so beautiful but too bad that I didn't took any photo because of my lousy handphone. Again, have a drink there and chit-chatted with my lovely coursemates. It was such a wonderful night... ^^

The following week will be having lots of entertainment.. Yeah!! However, my wallet is going to face some risk...hehe..

Today is Mothers' Day. Really feel sad that I can't accompany my mom. I phoned to her and give her wishes, even prayed for her. Felt good after praying for my awesome MOM!!!

Friends in KUCHING, I'll be back on 16th... Anticipate it !!!

Days without Assignments....

2011-04-24T07:55:00.000-07:00

This week was my final week for assignments. On Wednesday, Ann Ning, Goey and Priya stayed with me and Cindy at our house for doing website. All night rushing with it, conclusion is a sleepless night we had. For 21 years I've live so far, that was my 1st time not sleeping until the next day. I only be able to grabbed a 1 hour nap from 7am-8am. Miracle, Really!!! As I need sufficient sleep for next day, my eyelids were very heavy. I skipped dinner that day and went to bed at around 7+pm till 8am, the next day... LOL...

On Friday, went out with Ing Noh. Actually, we should meet with Wei Ting and Justin. However, those 2 didn't turn up. Wei Ting's left eye was swollen and Justin got to meet with his friends. In the end, both of us took public transport back to Noh's house as I'm going to spend a night with her till Saturday. Inside the KTM, I and Noh were really squeezed. First experience for Ing Noh though, never got squeezed till cannot move. Hahaha... Thanks God that I'm able to attend church service with Ing NOh and her family for Good Friday. Later, we went to night market. Chit-chatted with Noh till 3+am in the morning... LOL... Felt great as we haven't chat for quite a long time. Hehe.. The next day, we went to Viva, Jusco then Sungei Wang. Finally, we were able to meet with Justin but not Wei Ting. My legs were really pain and tired due to wearing high heels and walk for a whole day. Hahaha... But, never mind.. Hanging out with my buddies compensated my pain for that. :p

Ing Noh will be going back this Wednesday. Going to miss her a lot. I'm not able to see her untill year end. Take care ya, my friend!!!! Coming Thursday, my final exam will starts. Haven't take exam for a year already. It will be my 1st time taking university level exam. Hopefully, I can perform well!!!! God bless me !!! 2 weeks later, I'll be free from exam and Kuching, here I come soon.... Mommy~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Gotta spend quality time with you ^^

你们不会懂

2011-04-08T02:51:00.000-07:00

今天super junior的圭贤在韩国，早上5am,发生一场车祸。他要换路线时，撞上一辆罗里。庆幸的是，他没大碍。只是在手臂及双脚瘀青，少许流血。幸好没骨折什么的。听到这个消息，我还蛮担心的。因为这不是他第一次遇上车祸。在2007年，他因为一场交通事故，差点丧失生命。感谢上帝，垂听他的呼求，也垂听团员们的祷告；让他继续活下去。

我真的诚心诚意地要为他祷告，也希望其他人也为他祷告。为他的健康，平安来祷告。我真的不懂为什么有些人认为我已经神经，太迷他们了。请问为自己喜欢的艺人祷告是种罪吗？难道只能为认识的人祷告，艺人就不行吗？他们也是神的创造物。需要神的同在。只是大家的职业不同罢了。他是艺人，我是学生。若你们在facebook看到我的post，并且真的为他祷告。我从心里感谢你们。
圭贤是个基督徒。甚至大部分的成员都是，无论再忙；他们都抽空时间来灵修。灵修时光由始源带领。你们也许会问我怎么确定他们如此虔诚？会不会是伪装的呢？我可以100%告诉你们，这是千真万确的事实。我一直都有在跟他们的消息。更何况一个人是否是虔诚可以从他们的生命看出来。是否伪装，你们自己用眼睛看。

我承认我超级喜欢他们。不过，我还是有理智的。只是觉得很生气及沮丧，每当想为他们祷告，总会有有些人认为我不正常。已经走火入魔了。拜托！祝福艺人是没有错的！因为他们也是人！

Unstressed?

2011-04-07T08:52:00.000-07:00

University life is stressful? Well, this statement does not apply on me at the moment. Lots of my coursemates are complaining that they are feeling stressful since this semester. They don't dare to think how is it going to be on next semester and the coming years. I think because some of them took English in Vocabulary which has tons of assignments, that's why they are stress.

If compared to years in Form 6, I think university life for me now is quite relax though I can't deny that I'm busy doing with assignments and presentation stuffs. However, I really enjoy what I am studying compared to days in secondary school. The science and maths subjects which drive me crazy. The only problem I'm having here is teamwork. This is the "homework" that I need to do everyday.

Really enjoy shooting and starting to like editing. I still remember that during my earlier start, I was really frustrated with the editing softwares, but now, I'm fine with it.. Practice really makes perfect! Now, having 2 more important assignments and 2 more presentations to go. The one I'm going through with difficulties at the moment is my website assignment. Going to hand in in 2 weeks times. As for my Radio Station assignment, it'll be a bit easier compared to the website since it's a groupwork. Hopefully, this assignment would help me to boost my coursework marks up. I'm not satisfied with the current marks I'm having for "Broadcasting" unit.

My 1st semester is going to end soon. Final exam will be on 28/4 till 7/5. Then, MOMMY, I'M HOME on 16/5.. Yeah yeah~~~ Feels good to go home. No need to worry about expenses, transport and safety in my hometown.

Next Friday would be going to One FM Radio Station... Yeah, I'm so happy and excited!!!! This would be my 2nd time exploring a radio station. My 1st time was in Form 4. I went to Cats Fm with our school's radio club. Besides that, my class would be having a class trip on next Saturday too... Yeah~~~~ Enjoy fully before our final exam( gotta take good care of my wallet)...

Michelle Chung!!! FULL BLAST for the coming assignments!!!!!!!!!!!!

FIGHTING!!!

It is challenging

2011-03-31T04:32:00.000-07:00

"Hey, do u know that the difficult part in university is doing group assignments?". This is what I've always heard before I came to UTAR. Indeed, the moment I start my group assignment with my groupmates, I felt that already. Unfortunately, my groupmates are the girls I usually hang out with in campus. I can't deny that they can be a good companion but not a good working partner. Procrastination is always shown by them which me myself cannot really stand it. The outcome that I'm expecting dissapointed me. Am I expecting too high? But I don't think so. My expectation can consider low but why it can't be fulfilled? I'm not saying I'm perfect or what but I don't really see much efforts being put in in an assignment. I admit that I'm really academic-conscious especially when it comes to marks. I 'm so upset that the coursemarks I'm having now is quite low due to the low mark of group assignment which has lower my average marks down. I really miss my partners in secondary school ( Michelle Lim, Mei Shan n Andrea) and church ( Ing Noh, Lydia, Joshua, Chia Yin, May Yin, Li Mei, n etc.). Miss the days I collaborated with you guys. I really would want to tell my groupmates that I'm not satisfy with their performances. But I don't have the courage to do so. That's why I've changed to another group for the radio station assignment. Hopefully, this would be a good one although I know one of my new member is well-known for his laziness and procrastinate character. But at least I still got Cindy and Vinxi who are more dedicated to the groupwork. Amy, since the day u've quit the course, I feel so unmotivated. When u were here, at least both of us can push the whole team. BUt now, leaving me all alone. Starting Semester 2, going to pick my groupmates properly. But i feel guilty if I dump my gang. Sigh... what to do?? God, please give me strength and wisdom to face such circumstances.

SS3是一场梦吗？

2011-03-20T06:25:00.000-07:00

昨晚，Super Show 3 by Super Junior已圆满结束。从结束那刻开始到现在，我还是无法相信自己曾经参与在其中。对我来说，一切就像一场梦。感觉不真实，但偏偏我就是在其中。演唱会后，感觉好空虚哦。。因为在演唱会时，整个人就沉浸在那超强的视觉及音响效果，3个小时后，这一切都没了。

整场过程中，我不断地尖叫直到结束为止。太多东西想要表达了，一时真的写不出什么。目前可以用一个字来形容SS3，就是赞！活到21岁，这次是我第一次参与演唱会。老实说，我不后悔！甚至还会继续参与SS4。SJ 的劲歌热舞，名副其实的实力歌声；并不是像其他人所说的只是花瓶。他们除了拥有美丽的外表，也拥有毋庸置疑的实力！我没有听到一丝的走音，连快歌他们也不是对嘴的。。舞台效果超棒！SJ非常亲民，好玩，可爱，帅气，酷等。。。太多字可以形容他们。RM486 花得很值得！最令我兴奋的是，我即然能与东海一起拍照耶！那位小不点停一下，看了下，笑了下后，拿了我朋友的Polaroid，与我们一起合照！

（找到我了吗？？haha)

真的超级开心及幸福！万万没想到既然能和东海在同个照片里面。。。我还跟他对到眼，差不多有3秒吧！！哈哈哈！！！除此之外，在演唱会时，我三度差点掉眼泪！前面2次，觉得太不可思议了，感触很多，眼睛开始被泪水泛滥。第3次，眼泪流了下来因为看到强仁的那一段。10位成员弹着无形乐器，强仁以3D方式出现在银幕（他在当兵着），与其他10位队友一起合奏。他们那份深厚及坚固的友情很让我感动！还有！我差点就能动到圭贤及东海的手，但怪我手短，摸不到，真是气死人！！
不过，不要紧！因为我已经近距离看到东海及其他成员的面孔！特别是东海，超调皮的。一直作弄他的队友。还有，当我右手边的女孩要拍照时，他还特地停留下来，摆好手势给他拍！超贴心的。。我可以说，几乎整场我一直在注意东海！哈哈！没办法，因为本人喜欢他吗！
另外，今年的应援，给马来西亚来说，还不错哦！终于有了像样的蓝海！请看照片！

（很漂亮吧？？）

当他们在唱“No Other"时，许多妖精，也就是ELF们（SJ饭的名字），举起含有心型的banner。多么整齐及漂亮啊。他们看了后，露出似乎满意的微笑！

个人SOLO时，圭贤的”新不了情“让人听出耳油，唱功果然非凡！咬字更是不用讲，非常标准！艺声的”非你不可“更是让我起毛。因为饭们跟着一起唱。到副歌时，他把麦克风交给我们，全场唱了起来，声音是多么的澎湃啊～～～～利特边弹边唱的”KISS GOODBYE"也征服了我们的心。咬字也超准的。东海及银赫的性感热舞更让不少女粉丝疯狂！尤其当他们被女舞者抚摸身体时，全场尖叫！银赫的舞技真的让我佩服到底！不愧是SJ里的DANCING MACHINE!!! 好羡慕他的舞技哦...
此演唱会，他们都有跟粉丝们互动；还分发小球给我们。圭贤还把几粒球藏在口袋里，签了他大名后，再丢出去。可惜，我没拿到：（

一开场，我的东海被吊。之后，成员们一个一个出现; 呈现SORRY SORRY。

SJ 也呈现”BONAMANA", "SUPER GIRL", "U","A MAN IN LOVE"."DANCING OUT","COOKING!COOKING"."WONDER BOY",,,etc....

总结，他们呈现太多首歌了。若要写的话，会是很长的一篇。所以，你们自己到我的FACEBOOK去看个究竟吧。我只能说那晚实在太爽了！！！！！

(photos are taken in Facebook, Lee Donghae page and super junior forever 13. If you found out these pictures are taken from some of you. I apologise. However, I would like to say that this is just a sharing.. No offend ya ^^)

SUPER JUNIOR, LOVE YOU ALWAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The day before

2011-03-17T21:23:00.001-07:00

Finally, tomorrow Super Show 3 starts. I'm really anticipating it. I can fulfill my dream of going to Super Junior's Concert. Later after class, would be going to KL with Ann Ning. Prepare myself well before attending the concert. My hearts is going to explode soon... It's beating rapidly whenever I think of SS3 in Malaysia tomorrow and have the feeling of going to confess to someone... I know it's a bit insane... Donghae ar~~~ I can see you eventually, face to face, no need through tv screen...

SUPER JUNIOR FIGHTING!!!

Satisfactory Life

2011-03-05T01:14:00.000-08:00

It's been 3 months here, in PJ. Time passes without noticing it's March now.. I enjoy university life very much. I love it although I have lots of assignments, courseworks and presentations to do. These things keep me contented. Furthermore, every saturday evening, I would go to youth and worship our God and chit-chatting with churchmates . Since last Sunday, I had been in church from 10am till 5.30pm for attending church service, keyboard and dancing lessons. This reminds me of days in Sg Maong Methodist Church where I'm busy serving our Lord. ^^
I mixed with a lot of friends in UTAR and GA Youth, They are friendly and nice but sometimes they makes me "sweat".. Amy, Goey, Ann Ning and Priya are my close coursemate. We always get together which others thought we've been knowing each other for long. Actually, NO!!!! Hahaha... I knew 2 girls named yu ming and pei shi which they are both living in the same neighbourhood as me. We always go out for dinner.
This is our FATE!!! To be together! :p Love hanging around with them.
Lilian is my cell group leader in GA. A warm and helpful girl. I like to be with her too. I got to know yan nan, joanne, jojo and elena whom are in the same cell group as me. Thanks God for giving me so many sweet friends. 2 more months then I can go back to Kuching for my holidays.. Yeah!!!!
For the moment, I'll enjoy my life here till the fullest!

An unbelieveable experience

2011-02-19T00:03:00.000-08:00

Basically, I'm not going to post any judgemental things related to my title. Just a sharing of 1 and a half day experience. Well, if you guys stalk me, you would know that I've been queueing up in Sungei Wang since last night until this morning. I know it's a bit insane, however, this may be my 1st and also my last!

Yesterday, after finishing Pengajian Malaysia Lecture, me and Ann Ning headed to Times Square before going to Sungei Wang. Ya, I spent a lot there.. sigh.. Going to save up more for March. Anyway, that's not the main point I wanted to say.

We rushed to Sungei Wang when we got the rumor about someone disseminating numbers to the E.L.F(Everlasting Friends: SJ' s fans ) who were queueing beside GreenBox. Unfortunately, when we reached there, we then only knew that the number distribution thingy is not done by the organiser but fans itself. A bit quarelling between fans and I started to smell "smoke"coming. LOL.. .We are told that there is no permission to stay inside the mall. We've to wait in the carpark till the very next day when the doors are open for the ticket sales launch. Me and a bunch of ELF went to GreenBox to spent our long time till 4am. I only get to sleep for 30 minutes, break Michelle's "world"record!!!! After 4am, security chased us out to the carpark . A group of 8 persons has break into 2. Ann Ning and her friends were having some masterscheme behind which they don't allow me to tell the others. And you know what, I lied!!! I feel extremely guilty. I don't want to commit sins but I did. I'll put the blame on me.. Forgive me, Lord.

Then, we waited and queued until 8am+. The first time I shouted at people which I don't know as they keep pushing me from the back. I'm squeezed like a sardin. How "brave"of me huh?? Everything just went wrong to me for this 1 and a half day. Yeah! I bought the Super Show 3 ticket but I'm not feeling happy about it. The reason is an incident has happened to my friends .
Ann Ning has asked us to buy L5 for her friends. Ashley bought 4 L5 sits and 2 L6 sits and she wanted to take the L5 ticket instead L6. However, Ann Ning said her friends want to sit together in the same area, which means they don't want L6. Ashley said that she was bluffed by the staff there when purchasing the ticket. Ann Ning is getting angry, I know it by the look of her face. She told the incident to her friend and the friends of her scolded Ashley seriously which makes Ashley mad too. She went to the counter and exchange the L6 front row to L5 back row and give it to them. When the quarrel happened, our group got all the others'attention. I was so shocked!!! The 1st time in my life I saw such situation happening "live"to me. I was really in an awkward situation since both Ann Ning and Ashley are my friends. I can't be bias.

This event has showed me that human does anything to get their request fullfilled. In short,self-centered. From the pushing and pulling of queue to get to the front till purchasing tickets, all of us are thinking of ourself! No one is willing to give in. ELF are hurting each other just because of SJ. How ashamed of us when I think that all are SJ's fans but no cooperation among them. If I were SJ, I'll surely be upset by looking at fans quarelling with each other, no tolerance at all.
Now, in my neutral stand, I would boycott by ELFs if they saw this post. I think that it's so idiotic of us quarelling with each other, spoiling relationship just because of 10 korean guys. Malaysian ELFs have no unity. How pathetic is that!!!!

Started Again

2011-02-08T06:32:00.000-08:00

I'm back in KL again............ With mere sadness , I'm here.. Really hoping time would passes slowly in Kuching. Miss my mama again... However, I'm not going to be beaten down by homesick. Going too strive my best for my studies and enjoy the holidays in the coming May...
Hold on to myself for 3 months. I've enjoyed my precious time in Kch for CNY. Luckily, I went back to my hometown. If not, I really don't want to imagine days in KL without any celebration.

Assignments are waiting for me. Busy days ahead.

Want to show my appreciation here again to Ing NOh, Catherine, Cally, GK, Joyce and Wei Ting for my Birthday present... I'll make full use of it.... hehe

Chinese New Year Mode is ON !!!

2011-01-30T05:39:00.000-08:00

Well well, almost everyone especially those who pursue their studies elsewhere is back to their hometown already. Tomorrow, my roommate will be going back, leaving me all alone with the house owners here. I'm anticipating for Tuesday arrival. Since yesterday, I was thinking about my family in Kuching. Wondering how is the preparation for Chinese New Year as all of my uncles and aunts were back yesterday. Just by imagine it, makes me feel great! I love crowds especially on such a meaningful festive season. Just have to be patient for 1 more day.
God bless me on my trip back to Kuching on coming Tuesday(1/2).

Family and Friends, here I come...

Korea Cultural Performances

2011-01-25T03:51:00.000-08:00

Today, I skipped class!!!!! Please don't be disappointed in me. After all, I'm a good and obedient girl. Listen to my explanation before judging me, okay?

Inje University students from Korea has came to UTAR campus for a cultural event. It is more like an cultural exposure of 2 countries which are Malaysia and Korea. Inje Students performed a "Nobody"dance, Korea's Taekwando( which is very awesome and powerful ), singing folk song entitled GO TO THE BEACH ( they had changed the "beach"to "M'sia"and nevertheless, a Korean Traditional Costume Show. I got to expose to their culture and I'm overwhelmed by it.

In return, Utarians also put on an amazing show. Hip-hop dance and break dance are presented which we gained good applause from the Koreans. Malaysia is not bad in dancing!!! No kidding!!
A student named Joshua perform a song entitled"Belaian Jiwa"which I never heard of it.

Phototaking is a must and we had a group photo. I got to manage to took some photos with the Korea Students and I'm so happy about it.... hahaha... Never thought I would have such chances.
They are really friendly and heart-warming. They showed love signs to me and Ann Ning before they depart. One of the students even take pictures of us when they are in their bus. So cute of them!!!

Personally, I think such event should be organise more frequently, no matter with which country. We got the chance to know and understand better of cultures around the world. We get to meet friends with different nationalities and races. I do learn some from this event. I can't deny that the reason I attended this programme is because of Koreans. Honestly, deep down in my heart, I love this kind of exposure.

Homesick

2011-01-18T04:37:00.000-08:00

It's been almost 2 weeks living in KL. Feeling frustrated lately. Don't know how should I describe the feeling I'm having now. Compared the days in Perth, I've not cry so far though I thought I will. Honestly, I miss my mom so badly and yet I can't phone back since credit problem. It's expensive to phone back using digi. So, hopefully by this week, I get to buy Italk card so that I can call home quite frequently. My parents are calling me mostly but I can only have few minutes chat with them which me myself thinks that's not enough!

Just the 1st week my course commence and tons of assignments are assigned to us.
For "English Vocabulary", which is one of my electives, I need to do paperwork titled "Great Personalities". A 10 minutes screenplay by a group of 3 which we own need to do the scriptwriting.

On the other hand, "Broadcasting", for individual work, we need to prepare a 20 seconds video entitled "Self-Introduction" and as for groupwork, 8 minutes of documentary video entitled "Racism". WOW!!!!!

" Communicative English" is so far so good. Only need to prepare a reading portfolio because our lecturer wants us to inculcate reading habits to adhance our English... Mostly, writing is needed for this unit.

Tomorrow will be having "Multimedia Design & Applications"lecture. Hopefully this is a nice 1..hehe...

Meets lots of new friends here. Mostly are from West M'sia. I'm the rare one. Having a good time with them. Only with friends then I can feel better since I wouldn't have time thinking about mommy... I hope I can cope well as this is part and parcel of life.
All the best to me~~

The Beginning

2011-01-14T07:38:00.000-08:00

It's been my 6 days living here in PJ. Everything starts from zero. Friends, foods, living style, new environment and whole lot more to adapt in a totally new environment.

Meals can really be a huge daily problem when u're not at home. I've to eat food outside and sometimes need to check the prices before ordering it. Transportation is not an exception too.
In Kuching, I got vehicle to drive with but here, very sorry, can only take public transport.
Kinda inconvenient for me though. I must get used to it sooner or later.

Going to start my class next monday. Everything is in a mess especially my timetable. Hopefully by next week, I can sort it out..

Mom and Dad called me almost everyday. They feel worry, I know. But still, I need to learn to be independent and I know God is always be there for me whenever I need it!

This is a new stage of my life which I need to face it in order for me to grow :)
So, no worries my dear parents.

何等蒙福！！

2011-01-06T23:36:00.000-08:00

哇！！！！！！！！！！！要离开的期间，很多人给我送上祝福，无论是有形或无形的，都要跟你们说声“谢谢！！”

首先，

妈妈，谢谢你给我买了许多的日用品，知道你的钱包几乎都要被我给挖空了，真的觉得亏欠！我会好好报答你的。也知道你很担心我在西马的生活，特别在饮食方面，我会好好照顾自己的。请你放100颗心吧 :)

爸爸， 谢谢你给的床单。我可以节省不需要在那里买了。

婆婆，谢谢你的红包及祝福！我会好好善用的。。

公公， 我家最可爱的老人家，谢谢你的红包和满满的祝福！上帝爱你！

小姨，二姨，谢谢你的红包，真的有点多，知道你们是要帮我妈妈减轻他的负担，谢谢你们！！！

贵平姐，美莉姐 也要谢谢你们给的红包。真的没想到你们会给我送上祝福！很感恩！谢谢你们还会记得我！

佳盈， 我的好姐姐！谢谢你送给我的包包，很会选吗！知道我的品味:p 真的很喜欢，也要谢谢那些有一起出钱的朋友们。谢谢你们啦！

美伶， 谢谢你的叶绿素！没想到你会送我如此健康的饮品哦。。我会好好照顾自己的身子的。也谢谢你的招财猫及招财猪啦。。。呵呵~~

那些给我送上祝福及在祷告中纪念我的朋友们，满心感谢你们！因为有了你们的祝福，相信我能在西马生活地很愉快及平安。

我真是何等的蒙福啊！！

蒙福的人，就是我---钟惠盈！！！

Everyone is leaving~~

2011-01-04T00:43:00.000-08:00

2011 is a year whereby everyone is leaving for their studies and missionary.

4 days left before I'm going off... Feeling nervous yet excited!!!

Guan Kiat and Joyce will be going to Melbourne soon this February.. Our old gang members are decreasing year by year.

My dear friend, Sharon would be leaving too at April for a short-term missionary and she'll be continue her theology studies at Sibu. All the best for her.. Going to greet her as Reverend some years later.... Lol...

Reluctancy is rushing against me as I'll be leaving my hometown, family and friends behind. We can only get to meet maybe once a year for my friends. Luckily, Ill be able to meet my parents whenever holidays is on.

Going to adapt to a totally new environment and meet with people that I don't get to know with.
Please pray for me and my life in west Malaysia...

< 2011 >

2011-01-01T02:52:00.000-08:00

A BRAND NEW YEAR WITH A BETTER FUTURE AHEAD!!!!

"Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." ( Philippians 3:13-14 )

I want to live as what this scripture says in year 2011.. Should not look back but heading forward, for what has passed is already a past tense.

Now, my new year resolutions :
1) Grow stronger in my spiritual living
2) My dad and youngest brother,Joshua would turn to God
3) Mom and Nicholas grows stronger spiritually and physically too
4) Share gospel with my friends, at least 1 per year
5) Perform well in my studies

That's all, can't be too greedy.... hehe....

2011, here I come and I'm going to live a better life with God's amazing grace!!!!

31.12.2010 Last Day of 2010

2010-12-30T16:13:00.000-08:00

Reviewed on 2010, I've lived for another year fulled of God's grace and love.
2010 is a year that I've got many enlightenments which made me grew.
It's also a year where I get to flew off to different country and province the most.
It's a year that I'm FREE from studies.
A year that I learnt to cherish and love my family members more.
A year that I grew fatter.. :p
A year that I know when I'm unhappy about something, I should speak out instead keeping it all by myself.
Conclusion, 2010 is a meaningful and contented year for me. Glory to my almighty God as I can live for another year.( Don't take for granted for our living just because we're young.)
2011 is going to come in a few hours later. Should I make some resolutions to keep myself in a steady state.

To be continue on 1.1.2011~~

It's Time To Go!

2010-12-27T02:55:00.000-08:00

Finally I have my break from my busy Christmas schedule.. However, without realising, I only have 2 weeks left before going off to further my studies in KL. This time, I really will be leaving Kuching for couple of years, will be coming back for holidays only.
Everything is settled including accomodation. In the meantime, I just have to pack my belongings and get ready to go... :)
I feel excited yet sad because I'm leaving my mom behind. I'm looking forward to my 1st semester as I got Broadcasting class for my 1st year.. Hurray!!!! Really want to put all of my efforts in this course which I had chose. I want to become an outstanding broadcaster!!!! hehehe... Who say that only those who are involved in Medical, Engineering, Law, Accountancy will triumph??? Never underestimates the power of MEDIA!!!!
Don't ever look down on the course I'm taking, I warn you ( whoever you are ) !

Going to say GOODBYE soon to everyone in Kuching!!! Annyong!!!!

An Unforgettable Christmas

2010-12-22T19:01:00.000-08:00

Last Saturday Joint Christmas Parade was a success though it was raining. However, no weather can stop our determination on continue this event.. haha.. We were very crazy the whole night, singing christmas songs, greeting the passerbys and shouting for being too "high"!!! LOL
It was really a wet and funfilled night.

Tomorrow is Christmas Eve and our church as usual will have a Christmas Night starts at 7pm, dinner at 6pm. This year we got many interesting and grand performances which I'm anticipating it. The pass Monday, our church is so full that people hardly find any room to have practices. This is the 1st time I saw such situation and that really makes me think that 24/12 would be an awesome night!

The reason why this year's christmas is much memorable to me is I SPRAINED MY LEG on Monday which I found out later on the other day. The worst part is I got to perform on Friday night and Sunday morning! But Glories go to God, as last night I got treated by an uncle. Today feels much more better and by God's grace, I believe that I can dance with all my might tomorrow..hehe

Things to be done in December

2010-12-14T01:15:00.000-08:00

18/12 ~~ Dance Practice from (9am-3pm), Christmas Parade(6.30pm)

19/12-23/12 ~~ Dance Practice

19/12 ~~ Lead Praise&Worship with Noh for Sunday School Christmas Party at church

21/12 ~~ Dental appointment

23/12 ~~ Christmas Parade again...hehe

24/12 ~~ Christmas Night (Yeah!!! My last christmas performance at church before furthering
my study.)

25/12 ~~ Christmas Service in Church at 9am. Farewell & Welcoming Lunch in Banquet at 12pm

26/12 ~~ Dance Performance in church

30/12-1/1/11 ~~ Junior Youth Camp

9/1 ~~ FLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Slot in some other activities during this month :
1) Buy pin no. in BSN
2) Find accomodation in PJ
3) Certify my related documents for PTPTN loan
4) Take passport/IC photo
5) Buy living items needed in PJ
6) Straighten Hair

WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Seems I 've tons of things to accomplish!!!

Full

2010-12-05T23:40:00.000-08:00

My time in Kuching is getting less. 1 more month before I leave. Going to fly off to KL on 9/1/2011. Once again, leaving my family n friends in Kuching. But some of my friends are going to leave soon so no matter who leaves, we're still unable to see each other often. Hehe.. The one I'll be missing the most is no other than my MOM!!!! Days of missing her is going to starts again.
Nah~~~~~~ Everyone needs to undergo this process as life is always full of gathering and separating incidents. Next year CNY may not able to go home, depends on the flight ticket price and holidays given from our lecturer.

Busy busy busy~~~~~~~Apart from teaching and choreographing dance and directing drama for coming Christmas, I still need to go for body-checking which is required from UTAR. Searching for accomodation, need to have a dental appointment before I leave and etc. Why there are so many procedures to do to get into an university? My bad character of mine is driving me nuts just because of all these procedures.
Michelle Michelle! Do remember Matthew 6:31....

"Workless"

2010-11-24T08:07:00.000-08:00

Sigh... During these few days, I'm living like a computer maniac..Almost the whole day, sitting in front of my laptop, surfing facebook n other websites, watching dramas through PPS.. Since my mom is in Sibu from last Sunday untill this Thursday, thus I got plenty of leisure time... No need to help with her cake-baking :p

However, this kind of lifestyle makes me feel empty. I rather want myself busy doing some useful things. But still I manage to get some time not to approach my laptop too often. Yesterday went for a swim with Chia and today I'm able to choreograph one of the christmas songs for the coming Christmas Night. I think that within these few days, my short-sighted degree would increase tremendously... Hahaha

Next Monday will be going to Sabah till 2/12 for a church conference, I'm anticipating it...hehe
Then, I'll be getting busy for the dance n musical drama practices. Can't hang out too often as I'm always busy by the end of the year. Moreover, this year may be my last year busy preparing all the christmas programmes. I''m enjoying it though..hehe

Have to choreograph some more dances for the youth! Fighting!!!

顺服

2010-11-19T00:25:00.000-08:00

“顺服”这两个字，看起来很容易，却很难做到。这星期大家都担心派司的事情，最后大家最怕的事情发生了，本堂陈石兴牧师与晋福堂牧师调换。听到此消息，我真的很伤心。石兴牧师去年才来到本堂牧会，现在都产生了深厚的感情，如今却被派到其他堂会。

若真的是神的旨意，我甘愿顺服。但如果某人/某肢体在背后搞花样，我会气到爆炸！
讲真的，到现在我还是无法接受。

有些人给于正面的回应，也有负面回应。不过无论如何，我都要学习去顺服。更何况，明年我去读书，不再古晋 ; 今年可说是跟石兴牧师的最后一年。

石兴牧师加油！

Enlighten

2010-10-26T00:47:00.000-07:00

It's almost time for me to return to my hometown and starts my usual routine... However, I'll not be the same old Michelle when I'm back.. I seem to have some brainwash during 3 months time in Perth... This changes are good as it's beneficial to me.

During times in Perth, I do grumbled and complained for all the unlikely things happened to me.
Everyday, I hope to go home soon ( even though now i'm still eager to go home ) as I've serious homesick when I just came here. Tears were dropping whenever I think of my mom and when I called her. I got impatience with the kids when they're not behaving well and not obeying what I'd told them to do.

Harsh things do happen and we can't always hope for everything to go according to our own
ways. We can't expect people not to complain when we think that we've done our best because different people has different point of view. God will knows what we've done and we've not done.

I've become braver and more firm and are not afraid of harsh word aiming at me. God is with me and I will stand still as He is my comfort and I'll always find assurance in Him. He's the one who wipe away my tears and heal my broken heart.

I want to love my mom more and more for I know it's not easy to become a mother. From what I see, for the 1st month when Kirsten was born, Aunty Peggy need to sacrificed her nap and woke up every midnight to breastfeed Kirsten as she needs to drink every 3 hours. Mothers sacrifice their time, health and energy to make sure their offsprings have sufficient food, good living environment, education and a healthy body. I want to say THANK YOU to my mom for raising and nurturing me for 20 years till I've become a lovely lady. I want to thank God for giving me such a great mother. I learnt to appreciate my family members more as I've took for granted for what I have previously. No one is perfect in this world and I want to love them for the rest of my life.

God is with me day by day.. He hears my prayer and His word come unto me when I face temptation and obstacles so that I can fight back. His grace upon me is uncountable!

All I want to say that is I never regret coming here as I've received enlightenment and lots of blessings in my life..

Countdown again!

2010-09-29T23:40:00.000-07:00

Wow!!!!!!! Time flies.... It has been 1 and a half month staying in Perth... Going to go back to Kuching in 6 more weeks. Feels that I've just arrived here last week..hehe
Auntie Ting Ling has went back to Kuching this early morning, feeling a bit down, because someone I knew in Kuching has went back, leaving me alone... However, my Lord is with me, so what should I be afraid or sad about it?
As usual, miss home again... sigh~~~~~~~~

Updates in Perth

2010-09-01T01:02:00.000-07:00

Hey hey hey, it's me again... Here are some updates!
My lifestyle in Perth is mentioned below:
Every morning wake up at 8+am. Doing cleaning up and changing for Isaac and Joy, the children of Uncle Kwang Ik and Auntie Peggy. I'll just skip the eating parts.
Then, sometimes went to the shopping centre or market to buy groceries.
Every tuesday goes to library since there hv activities for children.
Every thursday goes to a playschool for the kids to hv fun.
Weekdays noon time, teach Isaac to write chinese character. Every afternoon must make sure the kids to have noon nap. so mostly, my leisure time is around 5pm til 6+pm
Night time I'll play and read storybooks for them. Around 10-11pm I'll go to sleep.
Sunday 11am go to church and sometimes weekend will go to pastor Kwang's house or Uncle Kwang Ik's churchmates' house for dinner. "Pok Lak" is one of their culture here for church activities.
Maybe starting next week I'll be driving to send the kids to library and playschool.
Oh ya, forgot to mentioned that children below 5 yrs old don't hv to go to school. They'll just nid to stay home and parents plan activities for them. So, that's why Isaac and Joy nid to go to library and playschool. That's all!!!
Will update some time later

A Letter from Perth

2010-08-23T02:00:00.000-07:00

Hey ya, I'm staying nicely in Perth now.. Thanks for all the blessings and concern..
Apparently, I'm staying at willenton. The weather here is cold. It's a very different weather in M'sia.
So as the food too . I hardly eat rice as I do in my hometown
Feeling homesick... Especially I miss my mother sooooooooooooo much!!!!!!!!!
I realised that I can't study overseas since I can't let go off my mom...haha
KL is ok since it's still in M'sia.. haha...
That's for all now.. Bye

Tension

2010-08-10T21:35:00.000-07:00

"Are you feeling excited that you're going off to Perth soon?". Quite a number of people asked me quite recently. Well, when they questioned about this, I just replied "NO."
However, just now I've sent my 3rd aunt to the airport and I realised that next thurs I'll be going to the airport too. Tension starts to grow in me. As, it's my 1st time that I'll go off from Kuching to such a far country by myself only. A bit worry though but I know God will lead me there safe and sound. So, just pray for my safety if you're the one who read this post. TQ!

Apologise

2010-07-30T20:39:00.000-07:00

Suddenly, I feel to apologise to those who've been hurt by me through my actions, words and attitudes unintentionally or intentionally. Though i don't know who have i hurt, still, i want to say sorry!

"Her(His)story"

2010-07-27T00:06:00.000-07:00

These few days I'd been doing some pass memories scanning...haha
Feeling thankful and blissful for what I've experienced and gained.

First of all, I want to thanks God for being a part in my life. He is always by my side in every circumstances. I've been in church since 11. In these 9 years, I've changed and been moulded by Him to become a more complete person.
I'm grateful that I've trained in church to face hundreds audiences on stage. I need to sing,lead praise and worship and playing piano in front of so many people. Many people have stage-fright and thanks God I've solve this common fear. Now, with His strength, I have confidence when I'm on stage. Moreover, I've found out that I love performing on stage. Sometimes, I do admire myself..:pHahaha...

Second, Church had cultivate leadership in me. I've learnt how to lead a commitee, meetings and ways to organise an event. I never thought of leading though. Nevertheless, I've become a secretary in MJYF for 5 years, thus, gaining lots of knowledge about what a secretary should do. So, I'm quite good in admin...haha.. Joking la..

Next, the friendship I've bond with my fellow churchmates. I want to thank Ing Noh, Keh Yue, Lydia, Sze Haan, Sze Wei, Vivian, Chia Yin, May Yin, Daniel Wong, James Wong, Stefanie Wong, Wesley and Josiah. I felt great for cooperating with you guys in church. We do things together in church and see growth in each other. Although some have changed, but still I'm really grateful for knowing you all. Kinda sad when think of the relationship between me and some of you are getting further. I miss the good all times. EG: the close relationship i had with vivian, great chit-chatting with sze wei. To maintain a close friendship really do need to put lots of efforts..

Don't know what to speak out now. Don't have inspiration for now... Annyong!!

不爽！

2010-07-21T23:02:00.000-07:00

为什么有些人就是喜欢骂脏话/写脏话在面子书上？不开心或生气就找其他方式发泄啦！何必做出如此低劣的举动？

我懂每个人都会有难过的时候，但有必要做这些会使我们变成粗俗的人吗？
受了教育，还显得如此不文明！更糟糕的是，你们有没有想过你们如此做会让人觉得你们父母亲没有好好管教你们？至少也要为你们父母的名誉仔细想想吧。。

如果你觉得有讲到你的，我只能说对不起咯。因为我现在真是超级不爽。
这些脏话是谁发明的啊？真是讨厌到极点！！！！

Imagine.......

2010-07-07T05:38:00.000-07:00

Imagine that if one day my life-long partner do such touching things to me, I would like "yes, I do!"
haha.. Every actions done by the members are so loving. Donghae with the rose, Kyuhyun with the love wallpaper, Siwon tying the girl's shoes, Yesung with the balloons, Sungmin with the keyboard, Leeteuk busy capturing love photos, Heechul writing a card, Eunhyuk with the video camera,Shindong with the pasting and puzzling and Ryeowook washing the cars...haha... Particularly, I like Donghae, Kyuhyun, Siwon, Yesung and Sungmin's way of confession. Hahahaha...
The lyrics is so meaningful and I really can feel the happiness that the composer wants to spread..

"There's no one like you". Hopefully, one day, my partner would say that to me. In return, I would say the same thing..haha... Goosebumps man...Paiseh, I know is a bit too much!!! haha...

BUT, before I find"HIM", I hope that my friends would stop helping me finding mates and match me with some guys or friends of mine. Because, for the time being, I've no feelings towards any opposite sex. NO FEELING MEANS NO FEELING.
So, very sorry, the nice deed of your efforts are useless. So, please, stop that!!! And I mean it....
Thank you. If I'm being too harsh, really sorry.

For now, my heart is just enough for Super Junior until He appears... :p

Addiction

2010-07-06T06:19:00.000-07:00

I've just realised that I'm addicted to a few things for quite some time.

1st, I'm addicted to my beloved Super JUnior..haha.. 5 days in a week, I've watch their videos, entertainment shows, music videos, news ,listening to their songs and more...
I just can't control myself not watching them :p
My day is great because of SJ...

Now, since yesterday.I've gain strong interest in twilight. I've borrowed twilight from sharon and just watched it last night.. Wow, AWESOME and so full of ROMANCE...haha...
I've found out why so many people are so into it.. Then, just this morning, I watched New Moon through PPS...

I'm looking forward yet feeling excited to watch Eclipse... Yeah!!!!!
Anyone interested to watch with me?? haha

Final Decision

2010-06-29T21:19:00.000-07:00

Recently, a lot of people were asking me which local university has the government offered you?
I've answered so many times till I fade up.

So here is my decision. I've reject UUM's offer and will be going to UTAR to pursue my tertiary education, I'll be taking bachelor of communication(broadcasting) for 3 years..

For the time being, I'll be in Kuching till early August. On the 19th of Aug, bye bye Kuching and Hello Perth,Australia!! I'll become a baby sitter and adapt to a new environment for 3 months. 14th of Nov I'll be back!! The sister in my church asked me whether I want to study in Australia, Her daughter would let me to stay in her house. I, of course, want to. However, financial problem! I'm not born in a wealthy family and even doing part time job while studying in Aus would still not be enough to cover up the course fees. Let God leads me. Who knows? Maybe miracle would happen, and I'll be able to study there..haha

FUTURE

2010-06-17T21:57:00.000-07:00

The local university has finally released! I got my 3rd choice which is hospitality management in UUM... Hmm, still considering whether want to go or not.. Coz I prefer mass comm(broadcasting) in UTAR...

Hospitality, well i've some interest in it.. Some said it's marketable, some said job-ensured, some said not good...bla bla bla...

But if I want to go UTAR, it would be next year january intake since i've missed this year may intake. So, I would still have half a year to pass my time. However, an aunt in my church wants me to help her daughter -in -law in perth... Taking care of her children and doing chores, of course i got pay... If I'm really going to Utar, this end of Aug, I'll be going to Perth for 3 months.

In the process of CONSIDERING.......

WHY?

2010-06-13T07:04:00.000-07:00

Why one's emotion always get affected by relationships problem?

Why one can be happy because of someone?

Why one would feel sad and mad because of someone?

Why one would care so much for the one they love?

Why one would give the authority to other to control his or her emotion?

Why one's routine would get affected by someone?

Why one cannot forget someone even though how busy one is and no matter how long?

Why should one shed tears for someone who doesn't deserve it?

Why one can be so emotional because of someone's attitude and behaviour?

Why one want to keep all the hardships by his/herself?

Why one would miss someone who has gone for quite some time?

Why I can't do anything for someone?

Why I want to post this?

WHY????? All I can say is I care for YOU!!!!

LOVE IS BLIND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT'S REALLY 2 DIFFERENT TEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IF

2010-06-11T22:58:00.000-07:00

If I'm taller and doesn't wear spectacles, I would become a pilot.

If I'm born in Hong Kong, I would want to become a police.

If I'm born in Korea, I would want to become a celebrity.

If I'm a male, I would like elegant female. :p

If I'm rich, I would spend my money to watch each and every SJ's concerts and fanmeetings, and buy their related items.

If I'm intelligent, I would want to study in Cambridge or Oxford.

If I'm hardworking enough, I would want to lost 5kg.

If I'm not that sensitive. I wouldn't get hurt by my friends'attitude, actions and expressions.

If I have a wish, I wish that all my friends and family would believe in Jesus Christ so that we'll get together in heaven after we pass away.

IF I DON'T KNOW JESUS, I WOULD HAVE BECOME "AH LIAN "AND LOST THE ETERNAL LIFE THAT GOD PROMISED US. I WOULD NEVER FEEL LOVE AND GRACE GIVEN BY HIM!!!!!!!

爱情论

2010-05-27T01:31:00.000-07:00

产生男女之间吸引力的物质是受到苯氨基丙酸所影响。可以透过两性之间的眼神传递，肌肤接触而产生。开始由大脑，沿着神经去到血液，续而令皮肤变红，身体发烫：甚至出汗，心情会激动亢奋。这就是男女热恋的感觉！（取于“谈情说案-03”）

今天看了“谈情说案”第3集，在剧里，林峰有这样的台词。我被这台词给吸引着。觉得他说的非常正确。就像我生物老师Mr.Gabriel 说的差不多。感情是被化学物质/荷尔蒙影响。一旦这些东西都渐渐淡去，所谓天长地久的爱情也都会凭空消失！

另外，我也非常赞成这句子。“当你给对方爱你的权利，你也给了他伤害你的权利！”哇！真是有道理！

哈哈。。突然间写这么emo的post,请大家别误会。我没失恋！:p

只是对现在人对感情的观念越来越不像话。劈腿，搞一夜情等不道德的行为。还有，年纪小小就换几百个男女朋友。不懂何谓爱情！一旦分手，就闹自杀！真是PABO!!!

有些还为感情emo，换性取向！这像话吗？若真的预备要谈恋爱，就要以结婚为前提。
否则，门都没！

20岁了！（叹气）。到现在都还没谈一场好好的恋爱。哈哈。。可能男生看到我太恐怖了，不敢靠近。也是啦，我长得不这么样，又矮，不会温柔，又粗鲁！有人会喜欢meh? 就算有，还要过我自己的关，因为我的要求挺高的！因为现在的男生，好得没几个，要绝种了。负责任的，更难找！太多小白脸，什么都要女生做！真是孬种！有的又好色，花心，懒惰。。。哈哈。。

另外我也怕受伤害。所谓“一年被蛇咬，十年怕井绳。”一次的教训够我受了！心好不容易恢复，就别再去触碰它！很想被爱，但又怕受伤害！真是矛盾啊！！

钟惠盈，你就慢慢等吧！哈哈。。。

Trip to Taiwan

2010-05-20T01:16:00.000-07:00

Hey I'm back!! Feel refresh after my trip.. Have lots of fun there.. Get to observe the people there. Get to taste their well known delicious food.. It's absolutely yummy!! I just eat eat eat, non-stop.. haha.. Need to go for a diet now...:p
I've bought a lot of stuffs till I bankcrupt..haha.. Can't control, too much pretty and attractive stuffs there! I get to hug a maltese there too!!!!!!!!! Hahaha......... So happy!!!
Indeed, taiwan has a lot of pretty girls and handsome guys there.. Their style is more japanese style.. Their mandarin slant is a bit different from us. One thing i can't stand is the way the young female talk is too much 娃娃音.Yhew!!!!!
This time i only get to hualien, kaohsiung and some little town area in taipei. Didn't go to Kenting coz of our pack schedule..sigh....
If I have another chance to go, I'll definitely go again.

Answer??

2010-05-09T19:59:00.001-07:00

Just now I've made a call to usm asking is it possible to reschedule my interview time. But, failed! Some ask me to fly back to kuching to sit for the exam but i can't. Financial problem dude! I'm not rich ar... Then, i go and check for utar and i found out that the course commence at 31/5. It's too late for me to apply now since their application status is already out. Besides, I'm in sibu attending camp..sigh...
Is this an answer from my prayer? The answer that I'm not suitable in mass comm.
If really like this, hopefully i get early childhood in um.
I really like broadcasting. However, i really don't know how is it...
Is it going to be tough? Only God knows and He'll lead my path though i'm feeling sad for not able to make in this field.

兴奋！！！！！！

2010-05-06T20:09:00.000-07:00

突然间很想用华语来表达我内心的喜悦！13/5 是我很期待的一天，有看我部落格的应该知道是怎么一回事！哈哈。。SJ第4张专辑就在那天出炉！真的很期待，心情就好像会考成绩出炉的紧张与兴奋。所不出的喜悦，只想尽情地呼喊，喊叫来表达！

13号当天虽然人不在古晋，但我也许会在台湾购买他们的专辑（如果有货的话，台湾有很多SJ迷）哈哈。。10号他们的MV也将独家首播。期待！期待！14号他们会在MUSICBANK表演。Yeah!!!!!! 这次的专辑只有10位成员参与。真是可惜！韩庚因为合约纠纷没有参与，起范则因为演戏，强仁要去当兵。希望superjunior能够恢复13人。若不能，也不要紧。在我心中，他们永远是13！！！

Super Junior, saranghaeyo!
:p

Resign....

2010-05-01T08:12:00.000-07:00

Finally, I'm not working starting this month. Going to miss my cutie angels very much..........
Miss all the teachers in crystal too... Too bad that i didn't take a picture with Ms Winnie...Well. what should i do within this few months before going off for my studies? hmmm...
Firstly, there'll be interviews for me to attend. Hopefully, the date would not crashed with the days i go to taiwan.. Yeah, TAIWAN, here I come... Always wanted to go ever since in primary school. Going to shop till my leg ache...Kenting, i'll come to explore your beach,pool and resort..wahahaha!!!!!!!!
My next stop- KOREA!!!!!!!!!!! Haha........ Maybe 10 years later...:p

This is my schedule in May:
11/5 till 19/5 ------ In Taiwan
28/5 ---- 1 Day Trip to Kubah with junior youth
28/5 till 2/6 ------- Going to Sibu for Camp

Now in dilemma again!!!!!!1 Early Childhood or Mass Communication??
Let God decide!!!!!!!! Just pray...

SUPER SHOW 2

2010-03-23T07:06:00.000-07:00

REGRET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
After watching all the recorded videos in youtube, i feel triple regret or even more!
It's such a awesome and enjoyable concert.
The intro was so great and each of the sj member just appear at each angle of the stage...wow!!!
The ending was touching too.. tears do drop juz by watching it in youtube..
I really wanna shout when watching these videos. feeling wanna participate in it
If i'm there, i really shout till my throat burst!!!!!!! haha..juz kidding..
I'm still quite moody.. Always feeling down.. coz i miss such a good opportunity..
Really feeling to go to phillipines to watch their concert since it's the last station but that country is quite unsafe.. I'm afraid.. sigh, no courage again!

STILL NOT FEELING GOOD, HONESTLY!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tears keep coming out!!!!!!

Maybe i'll only feel good when i join the concert.

When will I ever get the chance to meet them and join the concert?
Will i ever have the chance?
Or this is just a bye bye to me??
I'm not a lucky girl at all, especially when comes to the things i like.
I'll never have it.
Since I'm born, i always lost many appreciated things.. This concert is one of it...
This is how my life is.
A miserable life I have!!!!!!!!!

Regret.Ache

2010-03-19T06:49:00.000-07:00

Tml super junior super show 2 will be held in bukit jalil. But i can't go...Sigh..
GK is going so suddenly, so i really envy him as he got this chance..Just check the air ticket, it's too expensive. I don't have the money to go..
I've ever think of going when i got the news about it. But, during that time, i've no place to stay coz my aunt wil not be in KL.
Dunno when will I have this chance again. I'm eager to see them, especially donghae and kyuhyun. Even if i've, I think by that time i'm old enough..
Feeling want to cry now..Wanna release my pain and anger!!!
I know some of you may think that i'm crazy or what.
No matter how u think I am, I'm still ME!

Relaxation

2010-02-19T07:41:00.000-08:00

Just came back from damai today with my family. I've had an enjoyable 3 days 2 night trip. on the 1st day, I accompanied my mom back to kuching again coz she forgot to bring her luggage..very funny is it? How forgetful is my mom!! Besides that, we need to fetch my youngest brother too..hehe..
In Damai, i get to saw 4 korean kids..I was so happy!!!!!!! Haha
Coz I'm crazy about korea & koreans! I get to heard their conversation and i always smile by myself..lol..
A bit weird huh??! :p My uncle ask whether they are koreans by using english. But they're just nodding their heads. Don't know whether they understand or not?!
If i know how to speak korean, I'll surely take the opportunity to converse with them..lol
So, had fun indeed for me!

Too Much Things To Express

2010-02-12T18:59:00.000-08:00

Today is CNY Eve already. It's true that my sister told me that time flies when u're in ur 20s.. No doubt! For those who don't know what's my current life now, let me told u that I'm living a contented life now. Not a very busy yet healthy lifestyle. I'm a kindergarten assistant teacher now. Love to play and interact with the little angels... Children is so innocent and naive. I get to learn some from them which we couldn't find in adults. The pure heart which we lost when we grows. I really like kids now though some of them are realy naughty..hehe..
Besides working, sometimes hang out with my friends, which i think is another entertainment for me.. As usual, serving in church which makes my life more meaningful. Compare to last year, I'm more willingly to do church stuffs and i really enjoy it.. Maybe because I've no exam this year. So, I can endure in it..Praise God!
I've got band 4 for my MUET result this time. Really thanks God! Waiting for my stpm result now,will be releasing soon in march. Hopefully i can get a satisfying result. Still very blur about my future. Don't know which faculty i want to be in. I always tried to listen to my heart and pray for it, but no answer is given to me yet. Wei ting is going to study law in kl soon, but i'm still like wondering around. I do hate myself sometimes, all because of my thinking and pride. I always wanted the best course and best university for my education. But, deep down in my heart, I know that i don't have the qualification and my ability is limited. I'm not so clever that i can get into NUS( the U which i wanted). I doubt myself that can i really cope with the stress. I don't really like science field courses but sometimes i want it just because they're more work-promising and people look up to you more.. Foolish thinking again!
I want 2010 year to be a meaningful year to me. I want to become more mature in my thoughts and don't get control by the foolish pride of mine . My birthday is coming soon. But, i don't feel anything. Maybe because i'm used to the same old style of celebrating birthday that makes me feel hectic sometimes. How greedy am I ya?? Sigh.. No offences to my gangs, just wanna express my current feelings, but still thanks for the effort u guys had made in the previour years. This year maybe will be the last time celebrating with them coz need to continue my studies soon..
I'll cherish these memories...hehe..

Dislike

2010-01-05T01:46:00.000-08:00

Currently, I'm working as a clerk in saberkas. Really dislike my job.. coz i really don't like to face with bills, money and etc... These are sensitive stuffs! I wanna quit since the 1st day. My mom convince me to try again.
But still, i din gain any interest in it..hehe..
So, wanna change my job to a kindergarden teacher as from the beginning I plan to find this job just that i din see any advertisement in the newspaper..
Hopefully, my employer will let me go...
God, please lead my way...

Untitled

2009-12-25T19:08:00.000-08:00

Finally, Christmas is over... Last night was a great night. I really enjoy celebrating christmas..
2010 is going to come.. Wow, i'm 20 soon... Time really don't wait for anyone... This coming monday will be joining my youth camp till wednesday. Then, I'll be not so busy starting next year, hopefully. Wanna change my hairstyle again, still dunno what style i want...haha
Wanna find a job too, still searching for it..
Not much to say though, so I'll just stop here..

2009 Secondary School Students Camp

2009-12-18T00:32:00.000-08:00

This year is the 6th year i join this camp, can be consider as my last year as a participant..hehe..
I'm unlucky this year coz i'm having sorethroat and flu while joining in it..so, kinda tired for me to participate actively in the programmes.
My group members some are active but some makes me sweat.. All girls in my group participately actively, but the boys, sigh..not giving much efforts but sometimes they made me wanna laugh..haha
Oh ya, and u know what?! I'm in group 13, that's means SUPER JUNIOR!!!!!!!!!! Hahahaha...
This is so called FATE. :p
We even dance "sorry sorry" in the 2nd day as 1 of our exercises. but, unfortunately, not everyone can dance coz the steps are too difficult. but, i was really happy coz all the while ive listened many ppl sang "sorry sorry" in the camp... Yeah, way to go SJ!!!!!!!!!
OK, now below are some pics, enjoy it

Do u think they are brothers? The answer is NO!!!
BUT they look too similar...lol

Participants from GRSS...

My youth( Sg Maong methodist )

Wedding

2009-12-12T20:50:00.000-08:00

The bride and groom

In the process of decoration..

Just came back from sri aman.. I've attended my churchmates wedding..
The 1st time i can join in the preparation of a wedding.. Help to decorate church and bla bla bla...
above are some pics...

December Programmes

2009-12-01T02:23:00.000-08:00

This month is going to be a busy month for me.. I'm always busy on dec anyway...haha

1o/12: celebration of stpm with my U6S3 classmates
10/12-13/2 : Go to Sri Aman for a wedding preparation of my churchmates..
15/12-18/12: Secondary School Camp
21/12-24/12 : Christmas Dance Practice for Youth
25/12: Merry Christmas!!!!!!!!!!! Christmas Programme
28/12-30/12: Youth Training Camp

yeah!!!!!!!!! Going to have an enjoyable yet meaningful holidays

Exam still in process.........

2009-11-24T21:56:00.000-08:00

Time flies... now having 4 more papers to go which are mx 2, bio 1, che 1 and pa1.
Not having a good week.. not doing well in pa2.. I'd draw a wrong graph!!!! 15 marks are gone...
I burst into tears after doing such a mistake. No mood..
Aiming A in pa is getting further away from me... I hope to get an A- at least, so i need to memorise all the pa textbook and do well in pa1 to gain back my A.........
Today, mx 1 ok la.. I can't find the solution in some ques but my friends found it.. Don't know why??
My brain seems to get stucked!!!!!!!!!!
Bio 2, not bad... hoping to get an A for it too... so that my CGPA can be raised!
Che 2..ok ok la... not enough time to do! Hope to get a B-...hehe...
Sorry, i seem to be a bit greedy...
May God bless me through my works and efforts.

Recently, ss501 released their mini album"Rebirth". Hyun Joong has a new hairstyle.. so handsome ar!!!!!!!!!!!! haha

stress....

2009-10-30T07:18:00.000-07:00

20 more days to stpm.. stress is increasing day by day... worry about not passing my che and mx, can't score A in PA and BIO. I really strive this time, i've never been so hardworking before. study from morning til night. Guys, help me to pray if u read this post. I need more confidence towards God and myself too...

4 more weeks to go...........

2009-10-16T19:28:00.000-07:00

Finally, finished my mock exam..hmmm, doing quite unwell in it as i didn't finish revising all the subjects. But, coz of God's grace,most of the chapters that I've studied came out during the exam, so i still manage to answer it..hehe.. Hopefully, the result come out wouldn't be too lame...:p
Yup! 4 more weeks before stpm.. Going to strive as much as i can..yea yea... Don't want to have regrets like what i 'd during spm..

SM entertainment is organising a global audition at New York, Toronto, Vancouver and Los Angeles during the mid of Nov. How I wish i can go for it because I really enjoying performing at stage. However, due to studies and the auditions' venue which is quiet far from M'sia, I decide to cancel this thought. hehe.. Some of you maybe think I'm dreaming, but this dream of mine has never being depleted from my mind since i'm a child. I do like performing especially singing and dancing. Many people used to ask me what do you want to do after finishing your studies. I always reply them that I don't know. Actually, I've this dream that I wanna succeed. But, I'm lacking of courage from doing it.And also afraid of being tease by friends and family. That's why until now i'm not sure what i wanna do besides having this dream. If I have the money and time to fly over there, I'll surely go for it in order to pursue my dream..hehe...

Maltese

2009-10-07T21:56:00.000-07:00

Recently, I fall in love with maltese!!! Since a few years ago, i already want a toy dog and i heard that maltese is cute. Just recently, I find more info about it.. And I really love it. It's so adorable..
I'm going to buy one when i'm older..haha I mean when I'm working..coz my aunts don't like pets.
So i can only have one when i move away, that's mean when i have the ability to buy a house

Above are some pictures of maltese, you're going to love it :)

Study study study..........

2009-10-07T21:14:00.000-07:00

Yesterday just finished my muet speaking test. Quite ok compared to last term one. At least not feeling nervous and can speak quite fluently though i made a lot of grammar mistake :p
7th of Nov will be my writing, listening and reading section for muet.
Next week going to have my mock exam. Haven finish study all the subjects. More chapters to go. I doubt that I can finish it within these few days. So, i decide to study until where i can..haha...
Don't know why, i've just no motivation to study hardly o i rather say "pia" haha...
I try to do what i can. After mock, there will be 4 weeks left to my stpm. Gambateh!!! Trying to get good grades in it...
I've reduced my enjoyment with friends and family within these few months until i finish my stpm. So sorry guys that i can't hang out with u all within this period.
Now my routine is study, watch tv a bit, online a bit, waste my time a bit...haha
After my stpm, i'll enjoy until my heart is contented.. Muahaha.........